You Can Have A Change Of Heart, If You Would Only Change Your Mind...

hey there ppl! been 2 days huh. ive been bz arh. lotsa events occuring esp the spinno and some stuff. been hard on the heart man, emotional roller coaster. but things have become clear these few days. alot of things. ive leart alot.

i juz wanna state a few things. i, am not nice. you should know that. i can be nice to ppl whom i wanna be nice to. but if i am not nice, there is a reason. think about it huh.there's not much i expect from people except mutual respect. don't judge me...don't push me. trust me. i gave my word. trust it. believe in it. i dun lie. never in life would i lie to ppl i love and care about. but if u cant give me that, why would i give u my frenship. ive had close frens stab me in the back...push me around. you say yours is bad? then u should understand what its like, when frenz dont respect u. i dun wanna be a fake friend. seems you're blind. you're still my friend. can't you see...im doing what you want me to. its the only way i can not bearing a grudge for u. if im something more to u, then make me feel so. fix it.
mistakes are meant to be corrected, by people who make them.

on a lighter note, i wanna talk about my baby girl! today, hmm no yesterday, was the 5th month anniversary!!! woohoo!!! damn, 5/12 x 80 years is the time of my life that i've spent with her. haha she never ever fails to make me smile. i think im goin insane. u noe when im sitting on the train, i just smile to myself when i think about it. when im at home and some lame emo song blasts, i'll be humming it. think im reali going insane. help me. haha okay.

this week i learnt that people judge me. people exploit me. and i know its something expected of this new me. has love made me soft? what's become of me. im turning into her. hahah~

today we went out and got her a beautiful red and black cheongsam at bugis. at first we went to china square and dillydallied around chinatown...then the designs were ugly. i wanted her to get a one piece cheongsam, but decided that since she liked the one which is just the top, then get that one. and it turned out that we got a nice one that we both liked, and the in-laws liked it alot too! except daddy, who thought that it would make guys wanna have sex with her coz it attracts attention. don't worry daddy, i'll protect her k. trust me....seems this phrase should be repeated more often.

after that we dropped by gran's house to pick up some baking tray. apparantly mama's doing some baking for CNY. extra arh my family, always wan step chinese-y only hmph. hahaha aniwae, yeah then after that we walked to the reservoir in khatib. michelle once again explained to me orion's belt, and once again i remembered how to use it. damn, sailing is just not for me. hmm...okay i wanna tell you what we did today, coz it took me some time for me to plan.

firstly we got a GLASS bottled drink, in this case CRANBERRY NUNTUCKET, from Starbucks. yucks, i hate fruity shit. then after we emptied the contents into her stomach, we sat together a wrote an SOS. in the letter; addressed to a finder, whoever it may be; we wrote about the problems in life that seemed unsolvable to us...hoping that an angel out there would read it and help us ease our pains. those problems in the letter are DEFINITELY unsolvable...and we require much help with them. we're not telling what's inside so you'll just hafta be reely lucky if u get to read the bottle. hmm then we both went to the jetty, under the light of the stars, and made a wish that someone nice would get it. i then cast it into the sea, and it flew about 15m and landed into the reservoir. littering? but its quite confirm to be washed up somewhere accesible rite?

no matter what was inside that bottle, i wanna say that those problems in there, i will face it...together with her. together, we can make it. i believe in you. thanks for believing in me too. we'll make it alrite? and then we sat and enjoyed the late night air and atmosphere...i guess. haha

hmm yar. that's just a brief storyline of today. i'll update soon when i feel like it k. this is more than enuf to keep u ppl warm a lil bit rite? tc u ppl, may u all haf love in u always. and to her: i love u baby girlthank you for everything said, thought, done, or will do. we don't haf to look for an angel to read our SOS, ive found mine. =) okie then tc kids!