oh hey there u all. i re-found this song on my fren's comp in skool and it juz touches my heart. like it always has. i juz haf a reali soft spot for old song with guitars. i duno why. call it a string fetish but yeah. haha. and i juz find this song, so very the sad. so im juz gonna put it and translate it la. its damn sweet...hope u like it. Dedicate to my fren lihin...this one's for u man. To the rest, just scroll over the malay lyrics if u cant understand it for nuts. Oh yes. I love michybaby! Dun say i din write abt u.
Mahligai Dari Airmataku- Lestari
izinkan diriku meluahkan rasa
maafkanlah aku andai kau terasa
biarku paparkan apa yang terjadi
moga engkau tak ulangi
sungguh takku sangka kau berpaling tadah
setelah lamanya menjalinkan cinta
dalam diam diam kau sudah berpunya
tanpa aku menyedari semuanya
aku mendoakan agar kau bahagia
bersama si dia insan yang kau suka
percintaan kita tak sampai ke mana
setakat di bibir saja sayang
kau bina mahligai dari air mata
yang jatuh berderai di wajah sepiku
hancurnya hatiku bisa tak terkata
terhumban rasa diriku
oh aduhai ku masih ingati
janji manis dan saat romantis
kau pintaku supaya setia akhirnya
kau yang berubah
oh tuhanku tabahkan hatiku
temukanku dengan ketenangan
jiwa ini dibelasah rindu tetapi
apa dayaku
ku cuba pejam mata tapi tak terlena
keranaku masih teringat padamu
begitu payahnya nak ku melupakan
oh pernahkan engkau fikirkan, oh sayang?
Translation:
Palace Of Teardrops
Please allow me to speak my heart
Forgive me if this hurts you
Let me explain what had happened
So that you won't repeat it
I really never expected you to go back on your word
After we had built this love for so long
In secret, you were attached
And i never realized it all
I pray for your happiness
With the one that you love
For our love has gone to nowhere
Except on our lips as words
You build a palace from tears
That trickle down my lonely face
My heart is crushed with unmentionable pain
I feel so thrown away
Oh how i still remember
The sweet promises and the romantic moments
You asked me to be faithful to you, in the end
You were the one that changed
Oh God grant my heart strength
Meet me with solace
My spirit is beaten by longing but
What can i do
I close my eyes but i cant sleep
Because i keep thinking about you
Its so difficult to forget you
Have you ever thought of that, my love?
Okay that's all. I just wanna say to everyone out there, think before you choose to leave someone. Especially after being with them for so long. In love, i believe that there is reali no such thing as being ''bored''. Even if you are then its temporal. Realize that the person you are in a relationship has a heart, and when you realize that you cannot be with someone because it sickens you to be with them, then don't hold back from leaving. Don't wait until it drags until you spend more than a few months with them. If you don't see a future, then deal with it. Talk about it. Holding on then letting go later will hurt more. To those hurt, move on. Don't be crushed because of one mistake. You can't stop trying. Go on k. I'll support u. May you all find the one who is there for u, and won't leave your side. For i think i've found mine. Only time will tell. Till then this love isnt just on my lips, but in everything i do. Your love empowers me. Cya guys soon. Tc huh.
Sunday, February 27
Wednesday, February 23
All These Wishes and Dreams I've Had...
Hey there people. Have you ever had the urge to write an entry that is so real that you just point out the bare facts bluntly. Okay here's what gonna happen now. However no names have been mentioned. If you are kepo enough then you may jigsaw the fact to the people around you to proclaim that ANDI TOLD YOU A SECRET. which i didn't. Okay here's what i want to say:
-I have low white blood count and that is why i fall sick so often.
-I don't show it when I'm sick coz i want to spend time with you.
-Trust your child. Your child does their respective duties no matter how much they hang out.
-Stop labelling people who hang out alot as being slackers. We have a life.
-Your friend wasnt kidding when he tells you that there's something wrong with him.
-If someone doesn't want to be your friend, there's something wrong with you. Find the reason and fix it.
-If someone doesn't like you, don't push it. Don't expect it. Leave them and deal with it. If a dog sits down in front of you and beg, even tho it doesnt make noise, you know it wants something. Just walk away. If the owner wants to feed you, he'll come to you. He knows when to feed you and if he doesn't, that's coz he's not your master rite? Sorry for the dog context.
-I still want an apology.
-You don't apologize for the things that have been triggered after an event. You apologize for the event. I won't say oh im sorry our house burnt down, when you were the one who lit that candle.
-I want a band that gigs. If you showcase an original song on your first ever gig, the chances of it failing to impress will be higher than you attracting peoples' attention by playing a difficult cover. I want a band that is united, spirited, and gives in to one another. Not one that apologizes coz he refuses to accept opinions.
-Relationships, bands, class cliques and family are all actually working in a group as ONE. If you do one thing on behalf of someone, then its as good as the whole group doing it. Unless its an apology.
-Accepting each other and their opinions, and changing yourself to make your partner happy, is a gesture of love. Learn it.
-Going out with other people's girlfriends' without their consent is wrong.
-Being quiet is not a wrong thing. Talking only about yourself is.
-Bringing a bf/gf into your room doesn't mean you're gonna have sex.
-Don't give your heart away to people who don't deserve it. Especially if you're pretty. Don't rush into love without knowing the other person. You'll get hurt.
-I love my girlfriend. No matter what you want to believe.
-I am poor. Often when I say I'm not hungry, its coz i have no money to eat. And i don't want to lend your money. So be quiet and pretend u believe me. No i'm not referring to my gf.
-Best friends who have moved on are nothing but HI-BYE friends. Nothing more.
-My girlfriend misses her best friend. Can anyone tell her for me?
-I hate biased lecturers.
-Gay lecturers are actually nice people. Just be careful when you place your back to them, if not they are really nice people.
-As amazed as i am with the California Arts, I am grateful Singapore Poly has a great design course that i am in. I hope all of you remember that. Afterall, there is always something better for everything that you have. You just have to make what you have the best.
-Be careful in whatever you do. If a thought pops in your head, use your brain without your heart. And accept the decision and deal with it.
Okay if i have any other thoughts i'll put it. Cya people soon k. I'm kinda sick. I'm on MC! ciao.
-I have low white blood count and that is why i fall sick so often.
-I don't show it when I'm sick coz i want to spend time with you.
-Trust your child. Your child does their respective duties no matter how much they hang out.
-Stop labelling people who hang out alot as being slackers. We have a life.
-Your friend wasnt kidding when he tells you that there's something wrong with him.
-If someone doesn't want to be your friend, there's something wrong with you. Find the reason and fix it.
-If someone doesn't like you, don't push it. Don't expect it. Leave them and deal with it. If a dog sits down in front of you and beg, even tho it doesnt make noise, you know it wants something. Just walk away. If the owner wants to feed you, he'll come to you. He knows when to feed you and if he doesn't, that's coz he's not your master rite? Sorry for the dog context.
-I still want an apology.
-You don't apologize for the things that have been triggered after an event. You apologize for the event. I won't say oh im sorry our house burnt down, when you were the one who lit that candle.
-I want a band that gigs. If you showcase an original song on your first ever gig, the chances of it failing to impress will be higher than you attracting peoples' attention by playing a difficult cover. I want a band that is united, spirited, and gives in to one another. Not one that apologizes coz he refuses to accept opinions.
-Relationships, bands, class cliques and family are all actually working in a group as ONE. If you do one thing on behalf of someone, then its as good as the whole group doing it. Unless its an apology.
-Accepting each other and their opinions, and changing yourself to make your partner happy, is a gesture of love. Learn it.
-Going out with other people's girlfriends' without their consent is wrong.
-Being quiet is not a wrong thing. Talking only about yourself is.
-Bringing a bf/gf into your room doesn't mean you're gonna have sex.
-Don't give your heart away to people who don't deserve it. Especially if you're pretty. Don't rush into love without knowing the other person. You'll get hurt.
-I love my girlfriend. No matter what you want to believe.
-I am poor. Often when I say I'm not hungry, its coz i have no money to eat. And i don't want to lend your money. So be quiet and pretend u believe me. No i'm not referring to my gf.
-Best friends who have moved on are nothing but HI-BYE friends. Nothing more.
-My girlfriend misses her best friend. Can anyone tell her for me?
-I hate biased lecturers.
-Gay lecturers are actually nice people. Just be careful when you place your back to them, if not they are really nice people.
-As amazed as i am with the California Arts, I am grateful Singapore Poly has a great design course that i am in. I hope all of you remember that. Afterall, there is always something better for everything that you have. You just have to make what you have the best.
-Be careful in whatever you do. If a thought pops in your head, use your brain without your heart. And accept the decision and deal with it.
Okay if i have any other thoughts i'll put it. Cya people soon k. I'm kinda sick. I'm on MC! ciao.
Sunday, February 20
You Are My Only, My Only One...
hey there people! oh sori for the lame blog title...hmm...i think i kinda like that song. and ONLY that song...maybe its arthur's fault. i still think punk is nice but not respectable tho~ no offence. okay this is kinda slow but i just found out that yellowcard has a violinist? that's kinda cool man...i mean...whoa. okay. yar u caught me marvelling at punk. oh well.
okay haf any of u guys out there especially the muslims and christians recieved or seen any e-mails, tagboards, blogs, bulletin boards about the sun rising from the opposite direction? sounds scary doesnt it. Well for those of you who don't know, it is one of the major signs of apocalypse and when the sun starts rising from the west, on that day, the almighty god will not accept any repentance for any bad deeds that you have done in your life. that means, your fate is sealed...now im saying who wants to join me in hell? haha okay...that's so not funny. but okay...aniwae there has been alot of these sorta emails lately and alot of people have been so scared and paranoid, to the point that they dun wanna imagine the future for fear of the coming of that day. well what if i told u its not true? its all just to scare you? would you believe me? well im juz gonna copy and paste my email okay.
The science of astronomy states that the speed of planet Mars has been
decreasing in its course toward the eastern direction in the few past weeks
to the level we notice the "waver" between the east and the west..and on
Wednesday the 30th of July the planet movement stopped going toward the
eastern direction..
Then in the months of August and September...Mars changed its course in
the opposite direction to the West- and that until the end of
September..which means the sun will rise now from the west on Mars!!
And this weird phenomena of the opposite movement called "Retrograde
Motion" Most scientist state that all the planets will go through the same
once at least and our planet Earth is one of them. Planet Earth will move
in the opposite direction some day and the sun will rise from the west!!
This might occur soon and we are unaware!
The reply to this goes like this:
hey hey i checked the web for "retrograde motion" and this is what i found. flash movies on how the retrograde motion works!
http://www.astro.uiuc.edu/projects/data/Retrograde/
http://alpha.lasalle.edu/~smithsc/Astronomy/retrograd.html
Mars will seem to move in the opposite direction but actually, it's just slowed down, then sped up again. in fact the retrograde motion happens to all the other planets... lookie:
Mercury usually turns retro three times a year, but there are four retrograde periods this year.
Venus retro periods occur every eighteen months or so.
Mars turns retro only once every two years.
Jupiter from February 2, 2005 until June 5, 2005
Saturn from November 8, 2004 until March 22, 2005
from November 22, 2005 until April 4, 2006
Uranus from June 14, 2005 until November 16, 2005
Neptune from May 19, 2005 until October 26, 2005
Pluto from March 27, 2005 until September 2, 2005
earth doesnt go through retrograde, that's cuz retrogrades on all other planets are taken from earth's perspective. the sun still rises from the east on all these planets, the planet going through retrograde continues spinning round its own axis, but has slowed down revolving around the sun.
hmmm i hope i cracked the mystery! i miss ya lots.
lotsa love from michybaby!
-end-
okay now wasnt that just so sweet? now tell me...how many of your people haf girlfriends who are powerful enough to stop the end of the world? powerful enough to stop the apocalypse even when you are so sure that it is coming? well i gotta tell you that my girlfriend just did. she just nullified the apocalypse for me...and made it all better. you see in relationship you can work miracles, and one just happened for me. You're my angel. I love you and i sure miss you loads. Well if one sign of apocalypse is here, then i can tell you that time passes by really quickly when im with you. Even tho we skipped a few classes together; we spend time wif each other everyday after school; we take long bus rides so that it feels draggy coz its boring and time passes slower; it still feels ultra fast. I'll still dread when i see the clock strike 11:30pm, and wonder if i'll miss the last train. Well, at least i still know that the only thing i'll miss is your smile. Hmm okay. i still miss you baby. Cya tml yar!~
okay haf any of u guys out there especially the muslims and christians recieved or seen any e-mails, tagboards, blogs, bulletin boards about the sun rising from the opposite direction? sounds scary doesnt it. Well for those of you who don't know, it is one of the major signs of apocalypse and when the sun starts rising from the west, on that day, the almighty god will not accept any repentance for any bad deeds that you have done in your life. that means, your fate is sealed...now im saying who wants to join me in hell? haha okay...that's so not funny. but okay...aniwae there has been alot of these sorta emails lately and alot of people have been so scared and paranoid, to the point that they dun wanna imagine the future for fear of the coming of that day. well what if i told u its not true? its all just to scare you? would you believe me? well im juz gonna copy and paste my email okay.
The science of astronomy states that the speed of planet Mars has been
decreasing in its course toward the eastern direction in the few past weeks
to the level we notice the "waver" between the east and the west..and on
Wednesday the 30th of July the planet movement stopped going toward the
eastern direction..
Then in the months of August and September...Mars changed its course in
the opposite direction to the West- and that until the end of
September..which means the sun will rise now from the west on Mars!!
And this weird phenomena of the opposite movement called "Retrograde
Motion" Most scientist state that all the planets will go through the same
once at least and our planet Earth is one of them. Planet Earth will move
in the opposite direction some day and the sun will rise from the west!!
This might occur soon and we are unaware!
The reply to this goes like this:
hey hey i checked the web for "retrograde motion" and this is what i found. flash movies on how the retrograde motion works!
http://www.astro.uiuc.edu/projects/data/Retrograde/
http://alpha.lasalle.edu/~smithsc/Astronomy/retrograd.html
Mars will seem to move in the opposite direction but actually, it's just slowed down, then sped up again. in fact the retrograde motion happens to all the other planets... lookie:
Mercury usually turns retro three times a year, but there are four retrograde periods this year.
Venus retro periods occur every eighteen months or so.
Mars turns retro only once every two years.
Jupiter from February 2, 2005 until June 5, 2005
Saturn from November 8, 2004 until March 22, 2005
from November 22, 2005 until April 4, 2006
Uranus from June 14, 2005 until November 16, 2005
Neptune from May 19, 2005 until October 26, 2005
Pluto from March 27, 2005 until September 2, 2005
earth doesnt go through retrograde, that's cuz retrogrades on all other planets are taken from earth's perspective. the sun still rises from the east on all these planets, the planet going through retrograde continues spinning round its own axis, but has slowed down revolving around the sun.
hmmm i hope i cracked the mystery! i miss ya lots.
lotsa love from michybaby!
-end-
okay now wasnt that just so sweet? now tell me...how many of your people haf girlfriends who are powerful enough to stop the end of the world? powerful enough to stop the apocalypse even when you are so sure that it is coming? well i gotta tell you that my girlfriend just did. she just nullified the apocalypse for me...and made it all better. you see in relationship you can work miracles, and one just happened for me. You're my angel. I love you and i sure miss you loads. Well if one sign of apocalypse is here, then i can tell you that time passes by really quickly when im with you. Even tho we skipped a few classes together; we spend time wif each other everyday after school; we take long bus rides so that it feels draggy coz its boring and time passes slower; it still feels ultra fast. I'll still dread when i see the clock strike 11:30pm, and wonder if i'll miss the last train. Well, at least i still know that the only thing i'll miss is your smile. Hmm okay. i still miss you baby. Cya tml yar!~
Friday, February 18
i feel loved.
heya peeps! yeah i know we havent been updating... sorry yeah! we've been reely busy! well i just wanna say i'm SO glad IDS assignment 3 is over, and i'm SO glad Kong Sing DID miss our flash movie while grading assignment 2! haha you should've seen the look on ian's face when Kong Sing told us we failed. the truth is, i WAS kinda shocked and upset but i just didnt want to show it. haha lemme see what you people have missed since the last time we updated...
valentines' was great. yah we started the day pretty rough cuz andi was sick but well, we got over it! hey boy i'm reely sorry i had to spoil the morning... especially on valentines' day! haha tell y'all arh... dont jealous arh... Muhammad Andi Sufian is officially MY FIRST VALENTINE. fine i'm a loser that has never officially shared valentines' with anyone but yah. i'm sure ian feels honoured. HAHA! oh yah! well... we skipped HCD to celebrate... sorry Venkat! we spent valentines watching A Moment to Remember, this reely reely sweet Korean show, at a VERY affordable price thanks to Wendy! THANK YOU WENDY! ian was desperately trying to crack jokes at the saddest moments so that i dont cry. thank boy, i appreciate the effort. the show was SO SAD! i cant believe i didnt cry over it. HAHA! oh yah! ian gave me a SUNFLOWER! hwoaho it's reely bigger than my face! i'm looking at it now... yah it was the biggest in the shop! (according to the shopkeeper) and it got the biggest price tag on it too... well ian bought it anyway... thank you boy! i'm planning to press all the petals and put them one by one in our "hard-copy" letters okay! haha yah sorry peeps, hard-copy letters are STRICTLY CONFIDENTIAL and shouldnt be published on the blog! well dont worry, we'll give you fans a summary okay!
15TH FEB WAS YIXIU'S BIRTHDAY! haha happy belated birthday girl! hey i got a confession to make... andi and i actually planned to wake up ultra early to buy purple flowers from the wet market before school... but i woke up late! so we had to get a last minute one during break... i'm SO sorry! once again, happy birthday girl... i'm sure you enjoyed it! hey for attention-seeking (according to someone...) people like me i guess it'll be fun to have some live restaurant singer sing to you all night! well i'd rather him be live than dead! okay i just had to say that though it's way lame. haha... well i hope you did have a purpley birthday! ! awww... you've passed the year of your lucky number but HEY! you're legal to ride! haha WHEN our parents let us ride we'll get vespas okay! you'll get a lilac one... and i'll get a pink one! i hardly think it's gonna be too soon. *sigh!* parents.
yesterday? hmmm ian and i agreed that it was a nice day. it was. though he's been reely sick and all... i gotta admit i'm kinda glad! he's always running around doing stuff for me and taking care of me and protecting me... now it's my turn! i'm glad i could surprise him with all the things i did while he was sleeping in class... well even if he didnt notice, ian i hope you'll know that YOU CAN COUNT ON ME! dont worry about anything okay... worry about getting well! haha... thats the only thing i'm concerned about right now... hmmm yah other than our DWS assignment. in case you guys didnt know andi HATES fruits and vegetables. according to me thats why he's always falling sick. not enough dietary fibre and vitamins! yah according to him i'm a health freak. i quote "like Paul Tan from Under One Roof". thanks ian. i wanna publicly thank andi for forcing himself to eat fruits these few days though he hates it, just to make me happy. THANK YOU BOY. aiyoh sometimes i see him eat fruits also i heart pain. i hope he knows it's good for him, and that i dont enjoy seeing him squirm and frown so it's not for my own sadistic pleasure. (oooh sounds SM) yesterday was great. we handed in our IDS assignment 3 (a day overdue) and WE WERE SO GLAD. we're <-------> this much closer to the turi island field trip! WOOHOO!
let's talk about today. it was quite boring, actually. we were sleeping most of the time cuz we're both sick (YES IAN MY IMMUNE SYSTEM FAILED ME) and doing our DWS sketches. talking about DWS... hey Luna! dont sad okay, i hope you're feeling better... Luna lost her assignment on the computer today... this goes to show computers cannot be trusted. ian's computer totally died today lor! he couldnt even switch it on. Mac G5s arent as invincible as Kong Sing made them out to be. I DONT TRUST THEM. oh after school we went to Jelapang HAHA THATS LIKE ULTRA ULU to eat fruit salad that was out of stock. i'm glad i got to eat dinner with him tonight before he went to ngaji! oh for those who dunno, that's religious class. something reely sweet happened today and i wanna be the forst to report it! haha ass you all know ian is my portable safety deposit box cuz i'm always leaving my wallet and stuff around... and today, we forgot to return me my handphone before we parted... the amazing part is that he went back to Admiralty MRT platform to wait for me to come back, not knowing if i would cuz i couldnt contact him without my handphone! haha thing is, i came back too. we're still amazed at the unplanned-planned meeting... it's as if... WE KNEW. we just did. we knew that we'll come back for each other, we knew where and... we knew. hahaa they say people in love have telepathic connection... i'm sure it was our antennas. HAHA! well i dont believe the telepathy thing... i know we know each other. and we know we want to see each other again. even after parting for the day. HAHA! i'm glad you waited ian.
ian just talked to me today (DU'UH). he talked about burdens. recently he's been so burdened. i remember agreeing with him that he gets so sick probably cuz of all the burdens he holds inside. hey boy i just wanted to tell you: wutever burden you have, be it family, friends, ex-friends, habits, health, girlfriend(S), i'm here for you okay. you carry so many burdens, lemme share yours okay! just like how you share mine. sometimes you try to take it all up; but thats not how it works! we're a team, remember? you told me that! i love you ian. we'll share our burdens now, we'll share our lives forever okay.
things i learnt today:
#1. original gui ling gao (some chinese herbal jelly) is made of turtle shell. the imitation ones are made of grass jelly.
#2. Wendy IS biased. and she's biased towards me.
Monday, February 14
Promise Me You'll Never Let Me Go....
Whoa yeah u babies...welcome once again to our wonderful blog. HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!! WOOOOOOHOOOOOOOO OH YEAH BABY! WONDERFULLY AMAZINGLY PAWANG.
okay i juz wanna wish all couples out there a wonderful life filled with joy, love and happiness. i learnt a few things this week and i wanna share it with you ppl...if u want me to! if you dont then juz click the small x at the top right hand corner of this window. yeah cool.
LESSONS LEARNT:
1.Love is timeless. You dont need V'dae to celebrate it to a full scale. You don't have to wait for this day to skip skool and run away and spend all your pocket money on flowers and chocolates and bears and shit. You can just go sell VCDs or extort that stupid kentalation in your class who keeps hitting on your beautiful wife. Maybe steal a passport size photo of him and carry it around in your wallet as a trophy of your manhood. Well done, you hunk! Okay except for the first line, you just wasted your time reading.
2.In love, if you make sacrifices, it doesnt matter if the other party notices it coz in one way or another, you just contributed to the well being of the relationship and seeing that it is growing and developing beautifully in front of you is always the best satisfaction that you can be sure you will get. Don't expect gratitute, seek it. If you want someone to tell you how much they love you, then tell them what you just did and keep a stone face and say, ''I did that coz i love u. So kiss me now.'' I DARE YOU. Haha juz don't do it to people who arent your partners, like to your cat or wad. Coz i tried and it doesnt work.
3.Parents' support is extremely essential. And it feels good to know that they don't hate you even if they don't know that you're dating their daughter. Just let them see the real you. If they like you for who you are, then its good enough. Its definitely better than them speculating that you're playing with their daughter's heart to rape her legally or something. And even if they like you as a friend, or their siblings like you as a friend, then you are that much closer to being accepted. Don't be paranoid and wallow in self-pity and say ''damn, im gonna lose their support.'' Instead be happy that no matter what, you've always got each other and that's the way it should be. Even if your parents hate you and her parents too, you can still run away with their daughter. And that ladies and gentlemen, is the Jian Dan Ai that poor Jay Chou has been singing about all the time. The one that has no problems, no care in the world, and all that you wanna say is ''i love you''; all the time.
4.In a couple decision, always voice out your unhappiness with a decision if you think that you're gonna rethink about it later and feel sorry that you're ignored. Afterall, if everything seems okay, then it is probably thought of as being okay. But if you voice out your unhappiness and work things out together, even if at first people get angry at the dissatisfaction of the situation, then know that when and if you finally solve the problem, you both haf walked a step together in this road of life. Maybe a minor one, but it means alot to be able to communicate without resentment. As a couple you must be able to make decisions that both of you are happy about. And if there's gonna be a problem later on, then be sure that one of you can take the consequence. And when you do, you'll find that you're doing it all for love. Which brings me to my next point.
5.Love is priceless. Discover that in your own unique way.
6.ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS OPEN YOUR EARS. Whenever she says that she wants to do something, go somewhere, meet somebody, simply because she likes it. Then do it. Fucking do it. And don't forget. No, you're not human. You're more than that because love has given you the power to do things that you never thought you could. And that is to change someone's life. To be able to reach into their hearts and make them smile. And nope, im not talking about our Character Development trip to Institute of Mental Health. And when you somehow forget, apologize profusely and make it up to her somehow.
Okay that's all. now i'm gonna talk my mushy stuff. I love Michelle. For everything that she is. I think she's perfect. Today she cooked for me a wonderful meal of Maggi with prawn and egg that has been perfectly boiled to somehow not burst; together with some tangyuan. For me, it was the best meal I have ever eaten in my whole life although it cost us quite little. I love Michelle. Today she wore retro stuff to please me, i think. I love Michelle. Today she told her parents how much she liked me and said that she wants to marry me. Although it seemed unreal, I TAKE JOKES SERIOUSLY RITE. HMPH. I love Michelle. For everyday of her life, she worries so much about me, even when i don't see much danger in it. I love Michelle. I'm sorry for the days that i can't be here to hold you, to console you and manja2 wif u. I'm sorry for the times that ive forgotten to think about you, for the times where we decided based on me, for the times, it seemed like i didn't love you; well im telling you: I love Michelle. And i don't care if any other guy says it to you, coz they wun be able to say it after a size 12 shoe gets stuck up their asses. I wanna be the only one at the end of the day and say: I love Michelle. Coz its damn true. And i wanna be your valentine. Even if Jenny and Alfred laughs, I love Michelle. Hapi valentine's day baby. Hope you're not unhapi i din get you anything. All i got for u is this long entry that i wrote from the bottom of my heart. And of course my everlasting love for the next years in your life if u want it to be. Happy V'day and thank you for reading. Love you guys, all of you~
okay i juz wanna wish all couples out there a wonderful life filled with joy, love and happiness. i learnt a few things this week and i wanna share it with you ppl...if u want me to! if you dont then juz click the small x at the top right hand corner of this window. yeah cool.
LESSONS LEARNT:
1.Love is timeless. You dont need V'dae to celebrate it to a full scale. You don't have to wait for this day to skip skool and run away and spend all your pocket money on flowers and chocolates and bears and shit. You can just go sell VCDs or extort that stupid kentalation in your class who keeps hitting on your beautiful wife. Maybe steal a passport size photo of him and carry it around in your wallet as a trophy of your manhood. Well done, you hunk! Okay except for the first line, you just wasted your time reading.
2.In love, if you make sacrifices, it doesnt matter if the other party notices it coz in one way or another, you just contributed to the well being of the relationship and seeing that it is growing and developing beautifully in front of you is always the best satisfaction that you can be sure you will get. Don't expect gratitute, seek it. If you want someone to tell you how much they love you, then tell them what you just did and keep a stone face and say, ''I did that coz i love u. So kiss me now.'' I DARE YOU. Haha juz don't do it to people who arent your partners, like to your cat or wad. Coz i tried and it doesnt work.
3.Parents' support is extremely essential. And it feels good to know that they don't hate you even if they don't know that you're dating their daughter. Just let them see the real you. If they like you for who you are, then its good enough. Its definitely better than them speculating that you're playing with their daughter's heart to rape her legally or something. And even if they like you as a friend, or their siblings like you as a friend, then you are that much closer to being accepted. Don't be paranoid and wallow in self-pity and say ''damn, im gonna lose their support.'' Instead be happy that no matter what, you've always got each other and that's the way it should be. Even if your parents hate you and her parents too, you can still run away with their daughter. And that ladies and gentlemen, is the Jian Dan Ai that poor Jay Chou has been singing about all the time. The one that has no problems, no care in the world, and all that you wanna say is ''i love you''; all the time.
4.In a couple decision, always voice out your unhappiness with a decision if you think that you're gonna rethink about it later and feel sorry that you're ignored. Afterall, if everything seems okay, then it is probably thought of as being okay. But if you voice out your unhappiness and work things out together, even if at first people get angry at the dissatisfaction of the situation, then know that when and if you finally solve the problem, you both haf walked a step together in this road of life. Maybe a minor one, but it means alot to be able to communicate without resentment. As a couple you must be able to make decisions that both of you are happy about. And if there's gonna be a problem later on, then be sure that one of you can take the consequence. And when you do, you'll find that you're doing it all for love. Which brings me to my next point.
5.Love is priceless. Discover that in your own unique way.
6.ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS OPEN YOUR EARS. Whenever she says that she wants to do something, go somewhere, meet somebody, simply because she likes it. Then do it. Fucking do it. And don't forget. No, you're not human. You're more than that because love has given you the power to do things that you never thought you could. And that is to change someone's life. To be able to reach into their hearts and make them smile. And nope, im not talking about our Character Development trip to Institute of Mental Health. And when you somehow forget, apologize profusely and make it up to her somehow.
Okay that's all. now i'm gonna talk my mushy stuff. I love Michelle. For everything that she is. I think she's perfect. Today she cooked for me a wonderful meal of Maggi with prawn and egg that has been perfectly boiled to somehow not burst; together with some tangyuan. For me, it was the best meal I have ever eaten in my whole life although it cost us quite little. I love Michelle. Today she wore retro stuff to please me, i think. I love Michelle. Today she told her parents how much she liked me and said that she wants to marry me. Although it seemed unreal, I TAKE JOKES SERIOUSLY RITE. HMPH. I love Michelle. For everyday of her life, she worries so much about me, even when i don't see much danger in it. I love Michelle. I'm sorry for the days that i can't be here to hold you, to console you and manja2 wif u. I'm sorry for the times that ive forgotten to think about you, for the times where we decided based on me, for the times, it seemed like i didn't love you; well im telling you: I love Michelle. And i don't care if any other guy says it to you, coz they wun be able to say it after a size 12 shoe gets stuck up their asses. I wanna be the only one at the end of the day and say: I love Michelle. Coz its damn true. And i wanna be your valentine. Even if Jenny and Alfred laughs, I love Michelle. Hapi valentine's day baby. Hope you're not unhapi i din get you anything. All i got for u is this long entry that i wrote from the bottom of my heart. And of course my everlasting love for the next years in your life if u want it to be. Happy V'day and thank you for reading. Love you guys, all of you~
To: Muhammad Andi Sufian ONLY
hey ian... happy valentines! i'm reely glad you're much better liao. yep, after all the cirrus and panadols and... haha lots and lots of time with me! hmmmm i somehow think it was the cooking. yeah i'm sure it was the cooking. MY cooking. though it was some unknown brand instant noodle! yah thanks for coming all the way down to aljunied to fix my comp and risk a grill from my parents - TWICE. thank you for telling me my cooking was good when the noodles were all soggy. thank you for finishing every ounce of insecticide-tasting soya bean cuz i cooked the rice balls in it. THANK YOU. i'm so glad i spent the past two days with you. i missed you!
we've been together officially-unofficially for 5 months and 7 days! haha here's warning you its gonna be a loooooong road ahead! i'm beginning to tell my parents... we're gonna be officially-officially together soon! hmmmm that's what we've been fearing, right? my parents finding out and all... well i just wanna let you know i'm not afraid of it anymore. i got nothing to hide. i no longer have obligations to people who refuse to accept our differences. well i'm sure they will if they know what we've got here! thank you for supporting me all the way. dont give up on me okay? yah i'm reely sick of living a life of lies and err... 'kia-chuee'. i know you're sick of it too. give me time, okay? i'm giving them time too. i'm sure my family will see it too.
haha it seems like all my letters to you consist of 'thank you's and 'i'm sorry's! well lemme tell you a secret! (seems quite ironic) every night before i go to sleep i pray to God and thank Him for you. people tend to take the things they have for granted, i gotta make sure i dont! especially when it's you. haha you said before you dunno what to say when people thank you, right? well you dont have to say anything. thanking you only makes me realise how much i need you. (aiyoh i feel so useless now) well, i do need you. every day. hmmm well i know i'm one person who loves to argue till i'm right. to me it's not worth to argue unless you know you're right, and i'm sure it seems like i 'know' i'm right almost all the time! one thing i know i'm right about is that nobody's right all the time. please accept my apologies kae, and help me mean it. sometimes i forget, and sometimes i dont notice i'm doing it again. i'm sorry for that too.
since it's valentines day, i'm gonna re-thank you for all the things you've done for me throughout these 5 months. i'll do this every valentines' okay! yah i'll try my best to remember! thank you for filling your pockets with rubbish cuz you dont want to litter, when you're out with me or not. thank you for trying so hard to quit smoking. thank you for remembering all the little things that i like, be it strawberry yan yan or peach tea or sausage mcmuffin w/o egg or your striped sweater. thank you for accepting the things i do, like taking forever to decide what to wear or talking bimbo in public or walking funny or wutever. thank you for making an effort to please your parents just cuz i want you to, even when i dunno the
how ironic i've published this entry. wut the heck. my life is an online entertainment spot.
Saturday, February 12
since nobody ever reads comments... to the (SIC) one.
hey andi! wow i am SO shocked you didnt tell the whole world about how we wanted to scare the paranoid foreign student at west coast park and, oh yes, MY BIG FALL! yah and how you laughed your ass off before reely noticing i was bleeding! haha yah i got altogether 9, maybe 10 inches of ugly drain scratches on my leg now.THEY'RE SO UGLY i dunno how i'm gonna wear skirts for the next few months. andi thinks i should go for the rugged look. (WERT.) i know he's just trying to make me feel better. thanks anyway boy. love ya!
I feel (SIC)...
hey there....been awhile. hopefully ive snared some blog stalkers who miss me huh! aniwae...ive been bz la. sori to keep ya waiting. so here's my updates of wad happened:
hmm okay im gonna start writing about the general happenings in the fun family aye. okay lemme tell u that we've gone this far without support from the fun family. sad but yeah if its meant to be like that what to do rite? maybe we'll end up like conventional families where the in-laws are a pain to be with and you just want them outta your house. but that's not a good thing rite? i still hope that you people will accept me. i mean, i want to belong to a family; if i cant seem to click with mine, maybe i can reali try hard to fit in yours rite? coz we can always start afresh with yours coz they dun bear grudges for your past mistakes rite? im sorri alfred, im sorri jenny, im sorri rachel. i didnt steal your daughter away. i juz wanna take care of her and love her like my own member of a family. i sincerely hope that you would accept me...and choose not to hate me coz of that reason. please let me prove to you that i can take care of her, love her, and guide her to be as good as how you would mould her to be. i wanna be here for her, and i know she would too. i think. i never want michelle to be in a position that would make her hafta choose between you and me, but sadly it seems it happens all the time. and i would give in to you all...most of the time...but how long is this gonna happen? im not angry but maybe if you guys would consider something? trust me okay? i'll protect your daughter. from harm physical, social or mental. believe me, i'll be there. but it isnt that simple. i wish it was.
yesterday, michelle told rachel that she's going steady wif me. GOING...as in havent gone. so not so bad la hor. but she disapproved and even told michelle ''if u dun go wif andi, i'll buy u a shoe!'' okay. a shoe??? thanks rach. but it okay. i understand her. its difficult to accept that a high possibility ur sister's gonna be hurt, but i think she's in safe hands. i think. i sincerely hope that sumhow you would change your mind coz i wun break her heart. im telling you, in front of all these people on the net. and this website will remain her for as long as blogspot exists rite? and trust michelle, if she puts her trust in me, then maybe u should too so that you both can pressure me. i wun let u guys down k! haha
okay then today my alfred wanna spot check on us in class lo. so we kinda panicked a lil. imagine the look on his face if he sees the POST-ITS on my comp, (fyi, my comp is filled wif I LOVE YOU POST-ITs, REALLY FULL.) or her pictures on my table. oh yes, you can officially laugh at me coz i have no life. but no lo, i have GUNDAMs and SPIDERMAN on my workspace too wad. but NOOooo...i have our photos as screen savers too...how gross can we be huh. im sori...but im metal. please believe that i actualli like anger and destruction. please?
Okay, other than that, i tot new year we are gonna go to her house but instead DCMD went swimming and i went swimming wif michelle too at east coast park. BTW people, west coast park is close for renovations, don't ask us how we know. Had a realli nice time...although i was sick. Tommorrow im goin to her house to do IDS, bai nian, and fix her comp all in one visit; how cool is that? im so useful...okay im just saying that. but im glad that i actuali visited her AT HER HOUSE!
hmm yar. i wanna say to all couples out there, stay strong okay. and to other couples who dont have this problem, im so hapi for you. enjoy your time with each other; with the blessings of your parents. to those of you with similar problems with us, we're all not that different. stay strong and may we find our own way outta this mess huh. if we both work as a team, we can make it. all of us. yes i mean it. trust in each other and love each other. love can conquer all, and if your parents want you people to be hapi, then they know that you are hapi when u both are together. only then can you say they want their kids to be happy. i love michelle, for the record. cya guys soon! tc~
hmm okay im gonna start writing about the general happenings in the fun family aye. okay lemme tell u that we've gone this far without support from the fun family. sad but yeah if its meant to be like that what to do rite? maybe we'll end up like conventional families where the in-laws are a pain to be with and you just want them outta your house. but that's not a good thing rite? i still hope that you people will accept me. i mean, i want to belong to a family; if i cant seem to click with mine, maybe i can reali try hard to fit in yours rite? coz we can always start afresh with yours coz they dun bear grudges for your past mistakes rite? im sorri alfred, im sorri jenny, im sorri rachel. i didnt steal your daughter away. i juz wanna take care of her and love her like my own member of a family. i sincerely hope that you would accept me...and choose not to hate me coz of that reason. please let me prove to you that i can take care of her, love her, and guide her to be as good as how you would mould her to be. i wanna be here for her, and i know she would too. i think. i never want michelle to be in a position that would make her hafta choose between you and me, but sadly it seems it happens all the time. and i would give in to you all...most of the time...but how long is this gonna happen? im not angry but maybe if you guys would consider something? trust me okay? i'll protect your daughter. from harm physical, social or mental. believe me, i'll be there. but it isnt that simple. i wish it was.
yesterday, michelle told rachel that she's going steady wif me. GOING...as in havent gone. so not so bad la hor. but she disapproved and even told michelle ''if u dun go wif andi, i'll buy u a shoe!'' okay. a shoe??? thanks rach. but it okay. i understand her. its difficult to accept that a high possibility ur sister's gonna be hurt, but i think she's in safe hands. i think. i sincerely hope that sumhow you would change your mind coz i wun break her heart. im telling you, in front of all these people on the net. and this website will remain her for as long as blogspot exists rite? and trust michelle, if she puts her trust in me, then maybe u should too so that you both can pressure me. i wun let u guys down k! haha
okay then today my alfred wanna spot check on us in class lo. so we kinda panicked a lil. imagine the look on his face if he sees the POST-ITS on my comp, (fyi, my comp is filled wif I LOVE YOU POST-ITs, REALLY FULL.) or her pictures on my table. oh yes, you can officially laugh at me coz i have no life. but no lo, i have GUNDAMs and SPIDERMAN on my workspace too wad. but NOOooo...i have our photos as screen savers too...how gross can we be huh. im sori...but im metal. please believe that i actualli like anger and destruction. please?
Okay, other than that, i tot new year we are gonna go to her house but instead DCMD went swimming and i went swimming wif michelle too at east coast park. BTW people, west coast park is close for renovations, don't ask us how we know. Had a realli nice time...although i was sick. Tommorrow im goin to her house to do IDS, bai nian, and fix her comp all in one visit; how cool is that? im so useful...okay im just saying that. but im glad that i actuali visited her AT HER HOUSE!
hmm yar. i wanna say to all couples out there, stay strong okay. and to other couples who dont have this problem, im so hapi for you. enjoy your time with each other; with the blessings of your parents. to those of you with similar problems with us, we're all not that different. stay strong and may we find our own way outta this mess huh. if we both work as a team, we can make it. all of us. yes i mean it. trust in each other and love each other. love can conquer all, and if your parents want you people to be hapi, then they know that you are hapi when u both are together. only then can you say they want their kids to be happy. i love michelle, for the record. cya guys soon! tc~
Wednesday, February 9
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hey peeps! its the first day of chinese new year! haha and i did nothing but wake up at 2, watch tv and well, miss andi. gonna go to ah-pek's house for dinner in awhile since mom doesnt cook. sorry this entry isnt ULTRA LONG like the rest (okay that sounds quite odd) but well! i just wanted everyone to know how much i missed ian today! (and even more cuz he hasnt replied my sms since 2pm) haha... happy lunar new year guys!
Tuesday, February 8
No Time Like The Present...No Reason...No Lesson...
hey there people. hey i wanna tell u peeps smth, when u all read this blog arh, read the one before too coz usually it'll be updated by 2 people so got 2 entries back to back with different views about the days. USUALLY arh. but if i noe michelle, its not ALWAYS. yeah. so read k! lets get reading already.
To my past: everyone of u whom i put in my past, this applies to u all. im glad that we haf met, i enjoy the memories i have. but as u know, the past catches up on me. and sometimes, it makes me regret about it...about ever meeting you all. as much as i dun wanna mix wif u all, its a new life that im havin now. a new beginning. ive had my time enjoyed with you all, why cant u just let me live mine? let me go. dont bother my new frenz, my new loved ones. they are innocent. let me free. im not the andi you know before. ive changed. and i hope you all will too. just look at all the trouble you're in. open your eyes and see...life isnt about enjoying all the time. time to get serious. As for you who read this, it doesnt apply to you if you were the one i shared life with....the one i met in far east today. no not you. for u, there are only memories of smiles. nothing more and nothing less. im glad uve found ur life, and ive found mine. =)
To my present: im glad im here with u all now. dont take me for who you see k. i wasnt always like this. ive been here after hard times. i can be nice when i want to...to whom i want to. i just wanna say that i never ever regret spending time with you all, coz u are the ones i dun wanna forget. you are the ones i shall walk this stage of life with, the ones i will treasure at this moment in time. glad we're here today...like this.
To my future: you are the one i want. thank you for being here okay. im sori if the past or present has hurt you, but id never want it to. i just want you to be with me and happy. believe me, there is nothing more i would want than to see you everyday of my life. sounds so fairytale and fake, but people say that when they got so much love in their hearts. to me, you are my future. dont you speed up before me okay. wait for me, and walk with me together. we'll be on guard for the oncoming problems. and if you see one approaching, dont fall down and cry k. stand up, be strong....and tell me and i shall stand there in front of you to take the first shot. i'll be here for u. forever and a day. whoa lame.
okay i wanna end and say i did this in 10 mins. i still love MICHELLE FUN. and i'll never forget you who just read this. TRUST ME.
To my past: everyone of u whom i put in my past, this applies to u all. im glad that we haf met, i enjoy the memories i have. but as u know, the past catches up on me. and sometimes, it makes me regret about it...about ever meeting you all. as much as i dun wanna mix wif u all, its a new life that im havin now. a new beginning. ive had my time enjoyed with you all, why cant u just let me live mine? let me go. dont bother my new frenz, my new loved ones. they are innocent. let me free. im not the andi you know before. ive changed. and i hope you all will too. just look at all the trouble you're in. open your eyes and see...life isnt about enjoying all the time. time to get serious. As for you who read this, it doesnt apply to you if you were the one i shared life with....the one i met in far east today. no not you. for u, there are only memories of smiles. nothing more and nothing less. im glad uve found ur life, and ive found mine. =)
To my present: im glad im here with u all now. dont take me for who you see k. i wasnt always like this. ive been here after hard times. i can be nice when i want to...to whom i want to. i just wanna say that i never ever regret spending time with you all, coz u are the ones i dun wanna forget. you are the ones i shall walk this stage of life with, the ones i will treasure at this moment in time. glad we're here today...like this.
To my future: you are the one i want. thank you for being here okay. im sori if the past or present has hurt you, but id never want it to. i just want you to be with me and happy. believe me, there is nothing more i would want than to see you everyday of my life. sounds so fairytale and fake, but people say that when they got so much love in their hearts. to me, you are my future. dont you speed up before me okay. wait for me, and walk with me together. we'll be on guard for the oncoming problems. and if you see one approaching, dont fall down and cry k. stand up, be strong....and tell me and i shall stand there in front of you to take the first shot. i'll be here for u. forever and a day. whoa lame.
okay i wanna end and say i did this in 10 mins. i still love MICHELLE FUN. and i'll never forget you who just read this. TRUST ME.
Monday, February 7
i want a fat babe.
wutever andi is... emo, metal, jiwang, sappy, fierce, gangster, kental, wutever, i'll love him. always. as for those unsolvables... i'm not gonna bother about them till they come knocking. boy i just wanted to let you know that as much as you're afraid to lose me, i'm afraid to lose you. let's work together to guarantee that never happens okay! happy 5th month anniversary Muhammad Andi Sufian. oh by the way the drink is spelt Nantuckets.
boy i wanna thank you for putting so much effort into the SPinnovex shit. you didnt get no CCA points but hey! you got points with me! bwahahhaa... *blush blush* yeah i'm sorry you had to put up with shit left behind by the irresponsibles... i know you dont take shit but you did for my fickle-ness and/or forgetful-ness yeah you know wut i mean... i cant get angry with people for long sometimes and i let them walk all over me, and though i complain i do nothing about it. thank you for standing up for me dont i dont have the strength/courage to! haha see peeps! andi takes GOOD care of me! yeah other than that, i thought threatening to kick Azmi's balls is kinda crude, but i'm glad you scared him away from me. HAHA kesihan that architect kentalation arh!
i've been pretty upset lately... about certain people around my man. lotsa things have been unspoken, but i'm quite sure they're surfacing. i stated before you dont compare boyfriends and see which you prefer to determine which you love. well you may prefer, but if you dont love then you might as well stay single. if you cant make up your mind, you're probably unwilling to sacrifice one for the other, you might as well stay single too. when it comes to passion, there can only be one, be it love or hobby. well i guess when its passion, it isnt just a hobby anymore. i'm sure drumming is more than a hobby to ian. ian's been pretty upset since Kelvin said he's not fierce anymore... i know andi's easy-going and fun and stuff but nobody's an 'anything lah' person when it comes to the things they love. to y'all out there who are guilty: please take him seriously. he's making sure i dont get pushed around. i'm looking out for him too. i dont want my man to have to submit to the unreasonables of self-centred tyrants. i'm kinda glad they're surfacing. there ARE differences between enthusiasts and performers.
other updates: andi's dad says i cant marry him till i lose weight. wut an insult. haha
You Can Have A Change Of Heart, If You Would Only Change Your Mind...
hey there ppl! been 2 days huh. ive been bz arh. lotsa events occuring esp the spinno and some stuff. been hard on the heart man, emotional roller coaster. but things have become clear these few days. alot of things. ive leart alot.
i juz wanna state a few things. i, am not nice. you should know that. i can be nice to ppl whom i wanna be nice to. but if i am not nice, there is a reason. think about it huh.there's not much i expect from people except mutual respect. don't judge me...don't push me. trust me. i gave my word. trust it. believe in it. i dun lie. never in life would i lie to ppl i love and care about. but if u cant give me that, why would i give u my frenship. ive had close frens stab me in the back...push me around. you say yours is bad? then u should understand what its like, when frenz dont respect u. i dun wanna be a fake friend. seems you're blind. you're still my friend. can't you see...im doing what you want me to. its the only way i can not bearing a grudge for u. if im something more to u, then make me feel so. fix it.
mistakes are meant to be corrected, by people who make them.
on a lighter note, i wanna talk about my baby girl! today, hmm no yesterday, was the 5th month anniversary!!! woohoo!!! damn, 5/12 x 80 years is the time of my life that i've spent with her. haha she never ever fails to make me smile. i think im goin insane. u noe when im sitting on the train, i just smile to myself when i think about it. when im at home and some lame emo song blasts, i'll be humming it. think im reali going insane. help me. haha okay.
this week i learnt that people judge me. people exploit me. and i know its something expected of this new me. has love made me soft? what's become of me. im turning into her. hahah~
today we went out and got her a beautiful red and black cheongsam at bugis. at first we went to china square and dillydallied around chinatown...then the designs were ugly. i wanted her to get a one piece cheongsam, but decided that since she liked the one which is just the top, then get that one. and it turned out that we got a nice one that we both liked, and the in-laws liked it alot too! except daddy, who thought that it would make guys wanna have sex with her coz it attracts attention. don't worry daddy, i'll protect her k. trust me....seems this phrase should be repeated more often.
after that we dropped by gran's house to pick up some baking tray. apparantly mama's doing some baking for CNY. extra arh my family, always wan step chinese-y only hmph. hahaha aniwae, yeah then after that we walked to the reservoir in khatib. michelle once again explained to me orion's belt, and once again i remembered how to use it. damn, sailing is just not for me. hmm...okay i wanna tell you what we did today, coz it took me some time for me to plan.
firstly we got a GLASS bottled drink, in this case CRANBERRY NUNTUCKET, from Starbucks. yucks, i hate fruity shit. then after we emptied the contents into her stomach, we sat together a wrote an SOS. in the letter; addressed to a finder, whoever it may be; we wrote about the problems in life that seemed unsolvable to us...hoping that an angel out there would read it and help us ease our pains. those problems in the letter are DEFINITELY unsolvable...and we require much help with them. we're not telling what's inside so you'll just hafta be reely lucky if u get to read the bottle. hmm then we both went to the jetty, under the light of the stars, and made a wish that someone nice would get it. i then cast it into the sea, and it flew about 15m and landed into the reservoir. littering? but its quite confirm to be washed up somewhere accesible rite?
no matter what was inside that bottle, i wanna say that those problems in there, i will face it...together with her. together, we can make it. i believe in you. thanks for believing in me too. we'll make it alrite? and then we sat and enjoyed the late night air and atmosphere...i guess. haha
hmm yar. that's just a brief storyline of today. i'll update soon when i feel like it k. this is more than enuf to keep u ppl warm a lil bit rite? tc u ppl, may u all haf love in u always. and to her: i love u baby girlthank you for everything said, thought, done, or will do. we don't haf to look for an angel to read our SOS, ive found mine. =) okie then tc kids!
i juz wanna state a few things. i, am not nice. you should know that. i can be nice to ppl whom i wanna be nice to. but if i am not nice, there is a reason. think about it huh.there's not much i expect from people except mutual respect. don't judge me...don't push me. trust me. i gave my word. trust it. believe in it. i dun lie. never in life would i lie to ppl i love and care about. but if u cant give me that, why would i give u my frenship. ive had close frens stab me in the back...push me around. you say yours is bad? then u should understand what its like, when frenz dont respect u. i dun wanna be a fake friend. seems you're blind. you're still my friend. can't you see...im doing what you want me to. its the only way i can not bearing a grudge for u. if im something more to u, then make me feel so. fix it.
mistakes are meant to be corrected, by people who make them.
on a lighter note, i wanna talk about my baby girl! today, hmm no yesterday, was the 5th month anniversary!!! woohoo!!! damn, 5/12 x 80 years is the time of my life that i've spent with her. haha she never ever fails to make me smile. i think im goin insane. u noe when im sitting on the train, i just smile to myself when i think about it. when im at home and some lame emo song blasts, i'll be humming it. think im reali going insane. help me. haha okay.
this week i learnt that people judge me. people exploit me. and i know its something expected of this new me. has love made me soft? what's become of me. im turning into her. hahah~
today we went out and got her a beautiful red and black cheongsam at bugis. at first we went to china square and dillydallied around chinatown...then the designs were ugly. i wanted her to get a one piece cheongsam, but decided that since she liked the one which is just the top, then get that one. and it turned out that we got a nice one that we both liked, and the in-laws liked it alot too! except daddy, who thought that it would make guys wanna have sex with her coz it attracts attention. don't worry daddy, i'll protect her k. trust me....seems this phrase should be repeated more often.
after that we dropped by gran's house to pick up some baking tray. apparantly mama's doing some baking for CNY. extra arh my family, always wan step chinese-y only hmph. hahaha aniwae, yeah then after that we walked to the reservoir in khatib. michelle once again explained to me orion's belt, and once again i remembered how to use it. damn, sailing is just not for me. hmm...okay i wanna tell you what we did today, coz it took me some time for me to plan.
firstly we got a GLASS bottled drink, in this case CRANBERRY NUNTUCKET, from Starbucks. yucks, i hate fruity shit. then after we emptied the contents into her stomach, we sat together a wrote an SOS. in the letter; addressed to a finder, whoever it may be; we wrote about the problems in life that seemed unsolvable to us...hoping that an angel out there would read it and help us ease our pains. those problems in the letter are DEFINITELY unsolvable...and we require much help with them. we're not telling what's inside so you'll just hafta be reely lucky if u get to read the bottle. hmm then we both went to the jetty, under the light of the stars, and made a wish that someone nice would get it. i then cast it into the sea, and it flew about 15m and landed into the reservoir. littering? but its quite confirm to be washed up somewhere accesible rite?
no matter what was inside that bottle, i wanna say that those problems in there, i will face it...together with her. together, we can make it. i believe in you. thanks for believing in me too. we'll make it alrite? and then we sat and enjoyed the late night air and atmosphere...i guess. haha
hmm yar. that's just a brief storyline of today. i'll update soon when i feel like it k. this is more than enuf to keep u ppl warm a lil bit rite? tc u ppl, may u all haf love in u always. and to her: i love u baby girlthank you for everything said, thought, done, or will do. we don't haf to look for an angel to read our SOS, ive found mine. =) okie then tc kids!
Friday, February 4
Gentle reminder.
To everyone out there in the whole wide world:
Don't bully my girlfriend.
Don't exploit my girlfriend.
Don't expect her to take responsibility when you all just dump all of yours and expect her to pick it up for you.
Don't hit on my girlfriend.
Don't take her number to flirt with her.
Don't bother her when she's free and doesn't wanna talk to you.
Don't expect her to be somebody for you, to suit your needs.
Don't find faults with her, blame me.
Don't blame her for the lousy boyfriend that I am.
Don't touch her boobs.
If any of the above are found to be untrue, i will kick your butt. I swear. I am not afraid of you. I don't care who you are...how powerful you are or how fucking big you make yourself out to be. Deal with it or deal with me. Thank you. This has been a very nice reminder by me. Don't say i didn't warn you.
Don't bully my girlfriend.
Don't exploit my girlfriend.
Don't expect her to take responsibility when you all just dump all of yours and expect her to pick it up for you.
Don't hit on my girlfriend.
Don't take her number to flirt with her.
Don't bother her when she's free and doesn't wanna talk to you.
Don't expect her to be somebody for you, to suit your needs.
Don't find faults with her, blame me.
Don't blame her for the lousy boyfriend that I am.
Don't touch her boobs.
If any of the above are found to be untrue, i will kick your butt. I swear. I am not afraid of you. I don't care who you are...how powerful you are or how fucking big you make yourself out to be. Deal with it or deal with me. Thank you. This has been a very nice reminder by me. Don't say i didn't warn you.
Wednesday, February 2
She...Makes Me Smile.
hey wassap u saps. today has been a day of emotional ups aand downs. but its a great day i think. realli cool. read on...you babies. hahaha
today michelle, the more responsible one, woke andi up at 730am. if u followed my blog yesterday, class started at 8am and its an excursion which means we'll be taking the bus and it leaves at around 8. that's how excursions work! well so i hurriedly woke up and took a fast but quick bath...RIGHT KELVIN?...aniwae, andi bathed and quickly ironed my clothes...cun cun his mother came home...and yeah...he got his $30 which he wanted to help pay his hp bills. so andi left house and rang everyone panicking. he then phones leons and told him that he's gonna be late. leon suggested that andi go there on his own. yar so he decided to go straight there and wait for ppl there. he then tried to get a cab frantically running around the whole stretch of road to flag every cab there. time check:820am, andi was late. okay he should kill all ideas of going to school first to sit on the bus with michelle. (manja) he just wanted to help michelle carry the heavy tripod. that's all!~ you perverts.
aniwae, michelle took a cab to school and so was in school already. andi was rotting in sungei buloh, and the air there was damn still, and was super sunny too~ he just couldn't wait for the bus to arrive so that he can see michelle actually wearing jeans. yes michelle wears jeans for those who duno. he got scolded by the guard for lying down on the bench, as he was exhausted from running around in the morn, and also his ''animal planet'' shirt amused alot of people there too! haha...andi is so cool.
lemme tell u people about this small argument that michelle and andi had. today andi wanted to help michelle lighten her burden, because afterall andi was empty handed (which is everyday) and yeah so he saw michelle carrying the tripod and the heavy bag filled with cameras. so he insisted on helping her carry the tripod, and it was realli kinda heavy, even if she didnt want him to. doing small stuff like this makes andi feel glad that he can make michelle's life better. michelle, being insistant on carrying the tripod, because andi was taking a picture of something, shot at andi by screaming,''EH DONT TOUCH MY BOOB" when andi was snatching away the tripod she was hugging from her chest. the following happened:
Andi was quite shocked that she said that. it wasnt the first time he felt embarrassed for something he did not do. to andi modesty is a great issue for his girlfriend, and he could not think that of her if it seemed that andi was the one who goes around and touches her boobs in public. because he didnt. and michelle was saying that jokingly, and she does that often, jokingly potraying people as perverts who touch boobs accidentally. it is kinda funny when it happens tho...but not that funny when people give andi stares after that. andi felt very ashamed. his intention: helping her carry tripod. her intention: not wanting him to be burdened by the heavy load. and insisting in a joking way.
andi just kept quiet and walked forward...and in his mind he learnt a valuable lesson. both andi and michelle cared so much about each other and wanted each other to be happy and did not want to become a burden. they both wanted to make life betta with each other. what's the use of getting angry if there's so much love around? probably people might think that im a pervert...but who cares? im not! and u betta believe that or im gonna lick u to prove u right. hehe in a couple, people tend to overlook the fact that they care about each other so much and are so insistant about it. but, if both people are stubborn then there is no one to be cared for right? the lesson i learnt today is that if u care about someone, then let them care for u when they want to, and try not to insist on caring. instead, offer and not insist. that is a valuable thing to note yeah. coz in a relationship, you have to care and be cared for, and not be one way. yeah.
andi feels more love for michelle after this and he knows that he has to stop doing things that irritate her. he just wants to feel useful sometimes. at the end of the day, he just finds out again how much he loves her. and he just smiles.
I Just Wanna Live...
hey there u ppl!!!! aww man i appreciate all u ppl who have been and tagged here...so follow up on us love fools if u want k. it ought to be a good experience yar!
today i re-watched the good charlotte video...haha hilarious man. bloody foodies. i think the most funny part was the burger getting caught for kissing some other underaged food. hahah good charlotte's getting lamer i think. mainstream just spoils songs u noe...haiz~
Aniwae...i wanna officially say that im exhausted. i think 4+h of sleep for close to 60h is gettin to me arh. but i gotta do hw. wanna be responsible...i think. =) but yeah im just saying i'd do hw actuali. but its the tot that counts! hahah
Today i got the new marlboro ULTRA LIGHTS. surprisingly it wasnt as bad as i thought noe! its actualli nicer than Lights. the smoke was smoother and coz its ultra lights i think it should be lighter on the chest or something. although its non-menthol, its the latest one singapore ships or manufactures so maybe i'll start smoking this to aid me in quitting. wait till menthol ultra lights ships in arh. yar...i am quitting. for sure. thanx for supporting me ayang. be here for me k! =) i love my baby girl.
u noe she actualli lied to me about having lunch pocket money. don't lie to me again k. tho i have very little money, i wun mind givin it to u coz money means nothing to me. its juz pieces of paper that u need to give people for certain previledges. i guess being deprived, i have learnt that money isnt everything in this world. i mean, even if i have nothing in this world, i'll be happi if i got u rite? my money is your money and your money is your money. dun care about me okay...but you muz always have enough money to eat! so im always poor. haha =) oh and tell mummy thanx for the mounting board hor! i love jenny fun. tho she doesnt like me.
okay that's all i'm gonna write. little but yeah...a lil sweet dun u think. a lil onli. from my heart. nitey! tml muz wake earli! sweetdreams!
today i re-watched the good charlotte video...haha hilarious man. bloody foodies. i think the most funny part was the burger getting caught for kissing some other underaged food. hahah good charlotte's getting lamer i think. mainstream just spoils songs u noe...haiz~
Aniwae...i wanna officially say that im exhausted. i think 4+h of sleep for close to 60h is gettin to me arh. but i gotta do hw. wanna be responsible...i think. =) but yeah im just saying i'd do hw actuali. but its the tot that counts! hahah
Today i got the new marlboro ULTRA LIGHTS. surprisingly it wasnt as bad as i thought noe! its actualli nicer than Lights. the smoke was smoother and coz its ultra lights i think it should be lighter on the chest or something. although its non-menthol, its the latest one singapore ships or manufactures so maybe i'll start smoking this to aid me in quitting. wait till menthol ultra lights ships in arh. yar...i am quitting. for sure. thanx for supporting me ayang. be here for me k! =) i love my baby girl.
u noe she actualli lied to me about having lunch pocket money. don't lie to me again k. tho i have very little money, i wun mind givin it to u coz money means nothing to me. its juz pieces of paper that u need to give people for certain previledges. i guess being deprived, i have learnt that money isnt everything in this world. i mean, even if i have nothing in this world, i'll be happi if i got u rite? my money is your money and your money is your money. dun care about me okay...but you muz always have enough money to eat! so im always poor. haha =) oh and tell mummy thanx for the mounting board hor! i love jenny fun. tho she doesnt like me.
okay that's all i'm gonna write. little but yeah...a lil sweet dun u think. a lil onli. from my heart. nitey! tml muz wake earli! sweetdreams!
Tuesday, February 1
today.
school starts at 8 a.m. tomorrow. that sucks. admiring nature through macro lenses in sungei buloh with
blogs are dumb.
hmmm SOMEBODY said blogs are dumb right... well i'm not gonna tell an old joke. haha i wonder who's the one flooding this blog with sap! aiyoh after i read all these updates i actually feel scared. now the WHOLE WORLD like knows EVERYTHING lah... haha i feel like i'm in a soap opera... where there's only 2 actors? haha you people dig this dont you! eh ian we should start a fanclub!
yah andi told you the whole story, i got none left to tell. haha I'M NOT GONNA FEEL GUILTY for writing so little! i'm looking at this ugly blister on my foot right now... yah Rachel (my dumber sis) asked me to wear and season this new pair of shoes she got... and they hurt so much i had to take them off and walk barefooted home. haha well actually i didnt take them off, ian did. one thing reely GOOD about getting a boyfriend is that he makes you feel like a princess. GIRLS! copy and paste this for your boyfriends to feel guilty about! or you can choose to feel jealous. haha nah i bet all boyfriends dote on their girlfriends. well i wouldnt know, right? ian's my best boyfriend ever (not to mention he's my ONLY boyfriend ever) haha i wont wanna compare anyway. i mean, you dont compare things and see which you prefer to determine which you love right? well as far as i know, i prefer andi anyhow *blush blush!* haha i got a feeling
well i spent the rest of the day today sleeping... till ian woke me up to watch desperate housewives and do my typography assignment! thank you boy! haha right now he's just leaving me to do my work... and guess wut! i miss him already. HAHA! eh serious. yah lotsa people wonder how we can spend so much time together and still want to spend time... well honestly, i dunno how either, i know it's gonna last for a looooooong time. yah so Arthur, we havent got tired of each other YET, but i dont think yet's coming just yet. haha! eh you dont talk much lor, Xiu was just telling me about you and Charmaine that day!
i appreciate you sending me home and somehow making a fool out of yourself? boy i'll never take for granted the things you do for me. i'll take them, count them and name them one by one! sorry for the times i forget or i dont notice... well for those times, i'll know you love me more than how much i already know. awww man this is SO SAPPY i'm quite embarrassed. HAHA! eh ian i think we can just print out this blog to substitute our homework. *wink!*
well enough about us. i gotta rush my assignment! keep checking back for the next episode of same same but different! OKAY thats plain lame.
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