B.Y.O.B

A man returns home one day after a tiring day of work. He just wants to sit around and love his wife, give her warm hugs and recieve kisses before he tucks in for the night. He drives into the porch in his vintage car and gives a honk while parking in the usual spot, to signal to his wife that he has returned.

Glancing out the window, he tries the spot the sweet smile of his darling wife welcoming him. -Nothing-.

He feels something is amiss. Opening the door of his car, he feels a warm touch above his brow and all round his scalp. Must be the weather. Quickly he rushes to the front door, with thoughts running through his mind; "Maybe my wife is giving me a surprise! She's just waiting for me to walk through that door so that she can run to me and give me a hug. Yes, that's it."

The man carefully inserts the key into the keyhole, and his heart grew warm anticipating the warm arms of embrace that he is about to recieve. The key turns,*click*."I'm home baby!". -Nothing-.

Something is wrong. The man looks around the house, everything is in the right place. No signs of struggle or anything amiss. But where is my darling wife? The man feels a strange warm aura that resonates from his back. He smiles for an unknown reason. He feels as though there's someone there, but his eyes decieve him.

He walks up the stairs and goes to the bedroom; if there is a surprise, then it must be my wife waiting in bed with her sexy lingerie. "Oh that'd be so nice. No wonder its quiet around here."

He walks up to the bedroom door. In his heart are two emotions; one anticipating the possibility of a great night ahead, the other a sad desperate feeling. But he's not gonna take any chances, he's longing to see her. His hands grasp the cold metal of the knob and turns its gently. *swoosh*. -Nothing-.

The man sits down on the side of the bed and wonders,"Where has my wife gone?" She never leaves home. No, in fact, i don't expect her to leave home. Its not normal for me not to know where she is. And what is this mild warmth that I feel all around me?Then it struck him.

She's always there. She's always around the house. In fact she's always there behind him, and she had been hugging him ever since he stepped out of the car. This world; of sorrow, insecurity and jealousy; had created a world pulled over his eyes where he is blinded from her. She can't follow him in this world, instead he has to open his eyes and find her. To find a world where she can care for him; one where she isn't the only being in the world, one where she has her own things to do, her own places to go. He can't depend on her to be his only other person in the world; coz she isn't.

The man stands up and screams his lungs out, "Give me back my wife." There is a silence.-Nothing-

It's all up to him now.

... i miss you, so much, that it hurts

we've been quarrelling quite a bit lately. well school's starting soon, i guess we're afraid too. yes, of the angels or devils that speak to us when we're not together, and the angels or devils that speak amongst themselves when we are together, and mostly the dozens of five-piece sets of six-degreed fragments taken away from us to put on the kissing walls of the labs. we'll be missing so much.

Farewell To Friends

hey everyone...i've got this lame song in my head. I wanna dedicate it to michy, but the meaning may mean alot to all of you...so i'd rather dedicate it to all you kids out there.

FAREWELL TO FRIENDS - MATCHBOOK ROMANCE

A pictures worth a thousand words
But not worth the words I need to hear
I miss you so much that it hurts
And tonight, I wish you were here with me
So I could make you see
The stars, they lay across the sky so perfectly
They remind me of
All the times, when we used to sit underneath them, those summer nights
And fall in love

Its not alright, it's our last night together
I won't give up, I can't let go, of you.
I can't let go of you.

And tonight, I close my eyes and dream that she
is still the one, laying there beside me
I'd walk a thousand miles
I'd swim across the sea
What do I have to do, please just tell me

okay, that's cool. aniwae, i want to let all you people know that i'm officially staying in 2A/01 next year. i mean staying. well, at first i couldn't accept being separated from all you kids in 01, coz i do have some problems opening up to some people in this course, either coz you annoy me or i annoy you. but hell, i cant afford to give a shit nemore coz im staying. for the good of everyone, so that i'm being fair to everyone. just once, i can really say, i gave way. even if michy doesn't think i do, its okay! i still love her anyhow! =) wanna say that i miss my friends in 1A01 and you turi roommates, but i hafta deal wit it. i hafta be strong, for michy. i realized i have been hurting her with being sad at this situation, but i gotta lick my own wounds and pick myself up. guess the reshuffling hasn't been fair to me, however I; have not been fair to michy. i love you baby. let's look forward to a bright year ahead. i may still be hurting and sad about the situation now, but i'll pick myself up eventually. to the boys of 2A02, i'll probably come by and break ur noses if michy flirts with you, but i'll be close. but really, to all you peeps of 2A02 next year, enjoy bebeh. farewell my friends, i'll be close by.

A Picture's Worth A Thousand Words, Not Worth The Words I Need To Hear

I miss you so much that it hurts. why u havent sms-ed me all day? are u okay? hmm i wonder...what happened to you today?

i guess its just ur hp outta roaming service coz past 3 mths liao wad. but how come u get to sms me at 11am when u were already in m'sia? that's so weird. oh yeah baby dun call me from msia with polly's phone. hmm dun okay! its very expensive. and other than that incoming overseas calls are expensive for me oso. and i got last month's 18dollar balance to pay oso u noe! haha eh....i miss you so much. i miss u so much that im gonna write a whole paragraph of i miss you.

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oh damn i just realized something! i could've just copied and pasted it!!! damn im so dumb. see baby, my brain stopped working ever since you left me. hey i want everybody to know that you left me 3 times to go outta the country. and i just cant bear to leave you...remember that day i supposed to sleep nyai'e house? i went home coz u said u missed me! okay that's dumb but i did okay! hmm aniwaes, im really worried for u baby. i hope you're alright but i guess i should just leave u in the safety of ur mom, dad and polly; im sure they'd tc of you and love you just the same. i miss you so much. and you got that bear to hug. hope you're not missing me as much. coz it hurts real bad...you duno. haiz~ i love you. come home to me k! oh quickly too~

okay that was gross.

I Can't Let Go Of You...I Can't Let Go Of You

hey there people. its been a lil while since i wrote yeah. oh well. i just wanna wish my ayang a HAPPY 8th MONTH ANNIVERSARY!

michy said to me that day some things that really got my attention. im turnin out to be a lousy boyfriend. i refuse to allow myself to be...im sorry baby. i never ever wished to hurt you, in my mind i had no idea you were hurting. im sorry baby. i really don't know...i guess i was too caught up in my other problems in life that i treat you as my retreat. as a place i retreat to from the harshness of the outside world. it is with you that i find peace and happiness, and even though sometimes we do have our own problems, i'd rather solve ours than all the other problems i have in life. i'd rather spend time with you. the world outside is war, but the love you give to me heals my wounds and gets me ready for my upcoming battle. thank you for always being there baby. thank you.

i'm sorry that i don't know how to love you to the full extent. i just love you like how i know and im pretty sure my methods aren't enough. im sorry i failed to ask you how you wanted me to love you. i didn't know and i didn't ask. im so stupid. but now i need you to help me okay. teach me, teach me to love you properly. mould me to be the lover that you want me to be, to be the person you wanna keep with you for all your tommorrows. because i wanna be there for you. and i want to show you how much i love you...how much love i have in this heart for you. it just cant come out. help me okay.

everyone, i can safely say that michy is a very good cook. she can cook extremely well let me tell you. i have found so much love and respect in her because of this because as much as i don't like to admit it, a backdoor into my heart is thru my stomach. and michy covered them left,right and center. my wonderful wife made me MEAT cocktails, black pepper chicken chop(brocolli never became so edible), and even spaghetti. and coming from a family where mommy cooks twice a year, im wonderfully amazed by this lady. she's my darling wife. and i love her.

i don't wanna lose you baby. i don't.

problems aside; let's enjoy this day okay. 8 months and counting. till when? in the words of Raww Le Klueze; GundamSeed 1:50 "For eternity!" okay that's damn lame. haha i still love you michelle fun DAR ling.

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Wednesday, May 405

this whole week ian has been reely down... yeah hey boy dont sad okay... it'll turn out fine! TO ALL PEOPLE IN DCMD/2A/01: take care of ian okay! yep my boy's been reely worried about the class groupings... WE'VE BEEN SPLIT! yah. i know. it sucks. i'm finally feeling the stab. well, class and loads of assignments and a whole different and separate environment wont get to us! okay, maybe a little... just wanna take this time to anounce officially in our blog: ian i promise things will get better. it's only as good as we make it to be! you told me that! sure we'll go through lots and lots of time without each other... or just occupied with our own assignments, we'll start to feel the distance cuz we're going through such different situations daily, we might start quarrelling cuz we dont have time to understand each other anymore, and we become even more different than how we already are but i promise, in those times, it'll get better. WE'LL get better. we'll be the same and try as hard as we are now. maybe we'll have to try harder! well didnt we all make promises about NS, university, family, marriage and old age? i'm sure there'll be trying times ahead, btu we're still heading for the same dreams! well definitely class isnt just about ME. ian's SMOKING BROS are all in 02. thats my class. thats prolly a good thing to me! haha... BAD BAD LIHIN AND KENNY. at least they'll take care of me! haha i reely dont know why ian's so worried about me and asking people to take care of me but HEY! i dont care. i know he cares :)

yah other than that ian's been having problems with his family... his brother broke the gundam toy i gave him! boy it's not your fault, though we're all sad... dont worry okay, i'll buy you many many more toys when i got more money! haha feels like i'm talking to my kid. well this kid takes care of me and makes me happy and loves me lots and lots no matter how many tantrums i throw! probably talking about all these makes you upset... and i'm sorry if it did, just know i wanna help and i'll be there when you want me to okay?

yipee! it's our 8th MONTH ANNIVERSARY on friday! thats the 6th! hahaa wish us a happy 8 months leh! hey boy, cheer up yeah? we'll go do something nice on friday. and i dont want anything to spoil it or dampen our moods. i'm sure looking forward to it! haha... i'll go try another recipe :) to all our blog-stalkers... KEEP STALKING! haha