Hearts Burst Into Fire VI

A thick and cold fog has suddenly descended upon the cliffs, and the man is unable to see anything. For once, he seemed lost in his spot.

His vision is blinded, and he has completely lost the beauty. He calls out to her, yet no response. But through the fog, he sees rays of light, and as these rays of light breathe upon his skin, he feels the tender warmth of the daytime sunshine.

"What can this be? And where has the lady gone to?"

Suddenly from the blurry thickness of the fog, he sees the cliff's edge. And there, stood the beauty over the edge of the cliff. She was halfway into the drop, and her feet had already been over the edge. He sees his safety line, and he knows that it will catch her. He knows that if holds on to her, they can both be saved, by his safety line.

He dashes forward against the chilling coldness of the fog, his lungs freeze, and his skin shatters like ice, but he makes a leap for it, just as she went over the cliff. Suddenly his vision goes blank.

As he wakes, he feels the warmth of the light that he has seen earlier. Time seems to stand completely still, and he sees himself falling towards the earth. His hands have slipped from the grasp of the one he had wanted to catch earlier.

He looks up and what he saw took his breath away. The beauty, was in fact an angel. Her light was the one providing him the comfort that he felt earlier. Higher and higher she floated, seemingly unaware of what he has done.

His frail body cripples as he hits the ground below, and he, is shattered. Oh I should have known. So the woman was an angel all along. I do not blame her for anything, and I understand why she didn't tell me all this. For it was my mistake to think that angels could live with mortal men.

He doesn't feel angry at all, with all the unsaid, and all the half-truths. In his heart he knows, angels do not need to explain. They simply do not belong with us mortal men. But he is proud that throughout all this time, all that he has given is to the best of his limitations. He doesn't deny ever meeting this angel, and he has no regrets, for he was being true, honest and sincere all along.

"Rest assured, nothing will be said about the angel, even though I have seen through everything. Carry on, fly and shine your light to those that you desire. Don't worry about whatever you have recieved here in my spot, for it is my gift. It is my duty, my job. For I know, I shall survive this."

The man knows, he is mortal after all. He bleeds, and he sees that his place, is with the mortal men.

Hearts Burst Into Fire V

You know there is a legend on this cliff, this used to be a site of a castle.

So as the story goes, there lived a brave knight. It is spoken in the towns, the existence of a most beautiful princess that lived atop the cliff, stranded in the castle, high overlooking the view of the lands. It is said that whoever can convince her to come down, he shall have the honour of being with the princess.

The brave knight, ever gallant and courageous, stood up to the challenge. He was a man of legend, he has defeated many villians, slayed dragons and braved many challenges. He believed that he was someone so invincible, and he took it upon himself as a test. Because he knew, that no matter what everyone and even himself thought, the princess was well worth the trials.

He mounted his steed and rode forth towards the castle, and found the birthplace of the spoken myths, the colossal building, there towering before him. He approached it, and as his ride came to a stop he heard a voice.

"Who goes there?"

"Why it is me, nothing but a brave knight. I may not be the fairest, bravest and youngest knight in the region, by I have come by far to save you."

"Very well, speak."

"Oh princess, I have come to rescue you. Come with me and I shall take you away. Believe in me, for I shall try my best to aid you, and heal your sufferings. I have set aside all my personal beliefs, and I have brought gold and food and the promise of a good life."

"Stop. I've heard enough. Carry on, with whatever it is you are doing."

"But, your highness..."

"I have to go now, I have no time for such petty thoughts. And besides, the thought of ever escaping this horrible place has never struck me. Even so, I hadn't thought of it yet. Leave now, for you are not welcome here. "

And the knight marches on, but in his heart, he is begging for some answers to his many questions. None shall come though, and it is not known if it ever will.

And that is one of the many stories of this spot.

How long could you hang on to a word.

I have feelings for my junior from my secondary school,
Nurul' Kamilliya Kamil.

I wait for her to get her hp and sms me, everyday. But she hasn't been really smsing for a full month now, and I don't know if that constitutes as missing someone. Oh don't get me wrong, I'm not about to settle down. I just wanted to proclaim it to everyone since I'm such an extrovert and I don't give a damn about my reputation aniwae. I just want to be true to my feelings, and I feel something alright.

You guys know this, why am I telling you again. I duno, I guess I just exploded. Oh god, please spare my heart this time around.

Tml's an off day! Before I head into camp on Wednesday morning, 8am. 3 more weeks to POC, i think.

Romeo1 to Control, Romeo1 to Control. Romeo1 has lost sight of the target, over. Suspect has been transmitting information extremely irregularly, and leaking information. Credibility of which is still unknown, but Romeo1's been blindly following the lead, as we should explore all avenues of info from the subject. Or maybe its the new program called,''faith and trust''. Hoping there may be further leads into this subject. Seems currently all talkgroup channels to subject are engaged or made absent, but evidence HAS shown the existence of such avenues available based on images captured on the web. Romeo1 is currently very disoriented, from receiving distorted intel. Romeo1 feels like Santa Claus, over. LimaOscarLima Control, Romeo1 requests this ops to resume to where it was the last time. I'm dying out here. Please. TangoYankeeVictorMike. Over and out.

To You.

Happy birthday. :)

I'm just feeling sorry for myself.

TL of QRT, SI Zul: Eh you like a totally different genre of music huh. Its like you listen to heavy metal and suddenly got sad jiwang malay songs. I know what that's like. So which one are you eh, "Mat Putus Cinta(Love&lost)" or "Mat Jiwa-jiwa(Emo&lovelorn)"?

Sgt Andi: I duno lah sir, i think im somewhere in the middle. :)

I've never really opened myself to much malay songs before, but you know how I always have this constant choked up feeling. I don't know sometimes I feel that I live on others, you know. I strive to make others happy, and I tend to prioritize other people's feelings rather than my own. Inside I know so many things that I just could not open my mouth to say.

In some way I guess I find relief in songs. Sometimes they speak the words that you cannot just seem to say. In that sense a song speaks to you the way you could never speak to people, to tell them what you really mean. And I wanted to apologize to random people who stumble upon this blog, I know the blog entries titles being song titles tend to mislead you into coming here, by appearing in search engines. But its just me, I guess music is in me you know.

In the meanwhile, I am continuing my struggle to be a good and useful person and continuing my motorbike pracs, and I'm targeting to pass around July or August, before Hari Raya! It hasn't been easy, mind you. I fell on the figure 8 circuit yesterday, got thrown a good few meters on the tar, skidded on my head, palm and side. Scratched my helmet bad, got bruises on my hips and tore my gloves and had a DEEP cut on my palms, which kept watering the whole day. Its the most painful shit ah, I TELL YOU. But i'm just tahaning, hoping to pass really soon for the sake of some special people in my life. :) In fact, when i fell i got up and continued till the end of the lesson, bleeding the whole time. I fell at night around 10pm, but i even went to book a prac at 830am the next morning. The instructor said i HARDCORE. YES BEBEH.

Nurse, don't scold me, ok? This strength is the light of the princess. Every knight needs his steed right? Mine's gonna be a scrambler, with a box. So don't push me off my high horse now! ONWARD!

And you can save it all.

Sad song, sadder lyrics. Super meaningful. =(

Chiodos- Intensity In Ten Cities

I'm not the one that you want, i'll only let you down.
and i'm pretty sure that you've caught on.
and you can save it all
i'm just feeling sorry for my

i think it's every time i look into a room
pure silence so sudden but i sooth to hear it

context saying that you are the rain on the parade
and how long could you hang on to a word
tell me how long how could you hang on to a word

i'm not the one that you want; i'll only let you down.
and i'm pretty sure that you've caught on.
and you can save it all
i'm just feeling sorry for myself

but maybe it's all eyes on you; in love with ego and attention
the eyes that are just begging me for more
this is gone and i can see it.
your head is full of words, full of words that don't mean anything

and how long could you hang on to a word
tell me how long could you hang on to a word

i'm not the one that you want; i'll always let you down.
and i'm pretty sure that you've caught on.
and you can save it all
i'm just feeling sorry for myself

i'm not the one that you want; i'll always let you down.
and i'm pretty sure that you've caught on.
and you can save it all
i'm just feeling sorry for myself