In a flash.

Well, i was surfing friendster that day, and i just wanted to look back at the testimonials that i've gotten, coz i duno for some lame reason people outside think im some freaking playboy material, though i gotta admit, i lack the goods. HAH


09/17/2004 2:29 am

• andi? IAN? haha... seems to me he
  always knows what to say. well even if
  he doesnt he just knows how to make it
  alright. oh yes, i'm a sucker for DRUMMER (edited due to public complaints)
  boys who sing sappy chinese songs
  too! funny, talented, sensitive, romantic-
  he's great. that really sums it all. oh no
  i'm SO inflating your ego! well this only
  goes to show what good taste i've got
  so i guess it's okay right! wutever yall
  call him, mat rokok, metalhead,
  gangster (as if those were bad things) i
  lurve thiz guy! i heart you boy! girls (and
  boys) out there i'm tellin ya he's a good
  catch! dont miss him! he'll take care of
  you, keep you smiley and most
  importantly, he'll stay devoted. at the
  moment that'll be to me... so yall try hard
  yeah! *muahahaha*

well its days like these when you realise that yes, i think i was a good partner. But try as I will, I will never be good enough, coz it wasn't the things that I do. It was just me. I was the problem.

Voila! Another weird emotional moment from the Azure. Well done shithead.

Rebirth

Prac 8(Mock TP) results:

1st time: 50+points , 2 immediate
2nd time: 44 points
3rd time: 40 points
4th time: 16 points, PASSED.

TP test: 28/08/2008@0715hrs. Wish me all the best. SKM, standby to makan besar if i pass on first try! Roger ah.

Helmet: checked.
Gloves: checked.
Honda XR125L: checked.
TP: checked.

Oh god, please let me pass. I've been a very good boy! =) Prepare to be reborn, junkie.

Could I be any more this way, done starting over.
The silence in you, and this could be,
this could be the hardest thing to leave without a single trace.
Here without you
Here without you, I fall apart.

We'll place these stars, inside our hearts.

Crumble.

Pressure. Expectations. Mistakes.

I take these all, not too well I'm afraid. I was always never good at accepting how I let people down.

I'm having lots of trouble coping with this issue. Guess I'm three ranks too heavy.

Crimson.

Blood.

Salty. Heavy. Choking. And it sticks to your clothes, your throat, your hair. I swear even though I've taken a nice long warm bath to wash off the smell, I can still TASTE it. The salty flavour sticks to your tongue, until every little thing that you drink, eat, smoke or taste has that familiar awful smell.

It must have been the most violent, most bloody night ever as of date.

But I'm not about to let anyone down when they're in need, because I never did.

I hope the smell fades away quick, or my mama's gonna be paranoid that something dirty followed me home. The women on the train must have thought I smelt like period blood. But hey, I protect life!

The smell sucks. Seriously, you can't mask it at all.

Ah, blood. The perfect thing to kickstart your weekends.

November Oscar, very distorted, over.

Final bike prac, on the way pak menaweh.

Two more months of probationary "Romeo", Sergeant.

Sometimes I just wonder, if I was better as a mat, or better as a policemen.

Maybe women don't find me attractive anymore. Or maybe its all just the emptiness of having a testosterone-filled working environment, where the action is rough and where the women are gold.

I don't find women officers attractive though. Gua still love minahs aniwae. HAH

But in the world where the only women you meet are either your friend's friend's friend's friend the friend, or a damsel...I'm happy where I am. Its cold out here sometimes, though.

I miss having a partner, that's all I'd say. But I'm sure she's happy now.

I recieved a letter from HOTA lately, asking me to donate my organs. I wish that if I was on a deathbed, and people would be taking my organs and all, please take my heart. I think its the best gift that I have on me, the best thing that I can give away.

My heart.

HAHA if it restarts, it would beat normally again, so please take it ok!

Oh, shut up.