we've been together officially-unofficially for 5 months and 7 days! haha here's warning you its gonna be a loooooong road ahead! i'm beginning to tell my parents... we're gonna be officially-officially together soon! hmmmm that's what we've been fearing, right? my parents finding out and all... well i just wanna let you know i'm not afraid of it anymore. i got nothing to hide. i no longer have obligations to people who refuse to accept our differences. well i'm sure they will if they know what we've got here! thank you for supporting me all the way. dont give up on me okay? yah i'm reely sick of living a life of lies and err... 'kia-chuee'. i know you're sick of it too. give me time, okay? i'm giving them time too. i'm sure my family will see it too.
haha it seems like all my letters to you consist of 'thank you's and 'i'm sorry's! well lemme tell you a secret! (seems quite ironic) every night before i go to sleep i pray to God and thank Him for you. people tend to take the things they have for granted, i gotta make sure i dont! especially when it's you. haha you said before you dunno what to say when people thank you, right? well you dont have to say anything. thanking you only makes me realise how much i need you. (aiyoh i feel so useless now) well, i do need you. every day. hmmm well i know i'm one person who loves to argue till i'm right. to me it's not worth to argue unless you know you're right, and i'm sure it seems like i 'know' i'm right almost all the time! one thing i know i'm right about is that nobody's right all the time. please accept my apologies kae, and help me mean it. sometimes i forget, and sometimes i dont notice i'm doing it again. i'm sorry for that too.
since it's valentines day, i'm gonna re-thank you for all the things you've done for me throughout these 5 months. i'll do this every valentines' okay! yah i'll try my best to remember! thank you for filling your pockets with rubbish cuz you dont want to litter, when you're out with me or not. thank you for trying so hard to quit smoking. thank you for remembering all the little things that i like, be it strawberry yan yan or peach tea or sausage mcmuffin w/o egg or your striped sweater. thank you for accepting the things i do, like taking forever to decide what to wear or talking bimbo in public or walking funny or wutever. thank you for making an effort to please your parents just cuz i want you to, even when i dunno the
how ironic i've published this entry. wut the heck. my life is an online entertainment spot.
Monday, February 14
To: Muhammad Andi Sufian ONLY
hey ian... happy valentines! i'm reely glad you're much better liao. yep, after all the cirrus and panadols and... haha lots and lots of time with me! hmmmm i somehow think it was the cooking. yeah i'm sure it was the cooking. MY cooking. though it was some unknown brand instant noodle! yah thanks for coming all the way down to aljunied to fix my comp and risk a grill from my parents - TWICE. thank you for telling me my cooking was good when the noodles were all soggy. thank you for finishing every ounce of insecticide-tasting soya bean cuz i cooked the rice balls in it. THANK YOU. i'm so glad i spent the past two days with you. i missed you!
