Happy Birthday, you old hag.
I still can't figure out how someone can be so beautiful.
And you haven't seen something so beautiful until you see Michyfun in kebaya. Woohoohoo!
I love you, ayang.
Thursday, November 2
Monday, October 16
yaye.
lookie we got a new blogskin! haha okay i know its so weird we have babies on our blog but DON'T YOU THINK THEY'RE ULTRA CUTE? oh well. the good news: it's temporary. i just changed it cuz i was so bored with the previous one. i couldnt change the design much cuz i have NO PHOTOSHOP OR ILLUSTRATOR (i hope yanting reads our blog) i apologise for the incredibly hard to spot tagboard. soe of you might know tagboard's disappeared and this weird epanel thing has taken over, so i'll have to find a new boardhost. not tonight. oh yes an update: we're 2 years and still going! oh yes, like dont we ever stop. no. haha... alrightey i'm gonna go sleep for now. keep checking back for updates!
Sunday, September 17
Trivium's-The Crusade
I know i should not be having this cd right now, but i have it. And i must tell you that they make beeeyooutiful music. My favourite tracks are 4. Anthem (We are the fire) and 9. This World Can't Tear Us Apart.
Let me first stake my claim, before POSEURS out there who claim that they are Heafys, and say what a wonderful song this is. Amazing. And because i havent had access to the lyrics due to piracy let me just show you the beauty of this song, This World Can't Tear Us Apart. And this one's for my Michyfun!:
Let me first stake my claim, before POSEURS out there who claim that they are Heafys, and say what a wonderful song this is. Amazing. And because i havent had access to the lyrics due to piracy let me just show you the beauty of this song, This World Can't Tear Us Apart. And this one's for my Michyfun!:
"All the pain in this world won't stop us now,
For we have each other,
All the hate in this world can't tear us apart,
This love is forever. "
For we have each other,
All the hate in this world can't tear us apart,
This love is forever. "
Please stop listening to my music. Haha!
Monday, August 28
upgrading.
hi. it's been a long time since we've talked. yeah we know you're busy. busy upgrading. well we hope you don't forget us, like you did that day. we hope you watch our backs, like how we covered yours. you turned sour at us.
of course we don't give to receive. we just didnt expect you to stab us for thanks. ian was disappointed. i never liked you in the first place.
Saturday, August 5
Kill To Believe.
hey! its meaningful song time. and here's the meaningful song this season:
Kill To Believe-Bleeding Through
Now what do you want from me?
When I've sacrificed my heart so you can be set free
And time will never cure this disease
I'm only left with tired arms to stop from drowning
This is loveless
Your love is hopeless
Do you remember
On that night I couldn't find the words to say I'm sorry
If you recall that night you ripped my heart right out
Before saying I loved you
Do you believe in this
Do you believe in me
If you believe in love
Would you believe in me
So what will you take from me
I'm the man without a soul a soul for you to seek
And time will never cure your disease
I'm only left with
Tired arms to stop from drowning.
Believe in me
I've emptied my soul
Believe in me
I've killed this disease now
Time to shatter your heart
Bring you to your knees
I've found the strength to fight on
And stop the bleeding
You're killing, you're not the same to me now
Got to kill to believe
Kill To Believe-Bleeding Through
Now what do you want from me?
When I've sacrificed my heart so you can be set free
And time will never cure this disease
I'm only left with tired arms to stop from drowning
This is loveless
Your love is hopeless
Do you remember
On that night I couldn't find the words to say I'm sorry
If you recall that night you ripped my heart right out
Before saying I loved you
Do you believe in this
Do you believe in me
If you believe in love
Would you believe in me
So what will you take from me
I'm the man without a soul a soul for you to seek
And time will never cure your disease
I'm only left with
Tired arms to stop from drowning.
Believe in me
I've emptied my soul
Believe in me
I've killed this disease now
Time to shatter your heart
Bring you to your knees
I've found the strength to fight on
And stop the bleeding
You're killing, you're not the same to me now
Got to kill to believe
Tuesday, July 11
leaving the school of thought.
seriously if you ask me, i'm glad for you. when you leave, you become free of fear, free of hate, free of grudge, free of contradicting yourself, free. you're better off cut loose from the strings. go you.
Monday, July 10
The Love Blog
Maybe i'm the only one who has some attachment to this blog and reads it everyday. Who knows?
Monday, July 3
I've Never Wanted Anybody More Than I Wanted You.
well michy and ian have been up to something lately,
doing something in secret,
acting like they are married,
going to places where they've never gone to before,
opening locked doors, removing and wearing clothes,
entering hidden mysterious caves,
and maybe ending up somewhere very very wet.
Its not sex. Its something very wholesome. I'm serious.
doing something in secret,
acting like they are married,
going to places where they've never gone to before,
opening locked doors, removing and wearing clothes,
entering hidden mysterious caves,
and maybe ending up somewhere very very wet.
Its not sex. Its something very wholesome. I'm serious.
Tuesday, May 23
I cannot believe that our end is so near.
Today michyfun and me were trapped in a road accident near cineleisure orchard.
I swear it was as close to death as i got. Fear gripped my heart as i saw the car speeding towards me from the front, and michy's lying there on the road motionless.
"Get up! Get up ayang!"
But there was no doubt that i would give my life for her. Not one doubt.
I swear it was as close to death as i got. Fear gripped my heart as i saw the car speeding towards me from the front, and michy's lying there on the road motionless.
"Get up! Get up ayang!"
But there was no doubt that i would give my life for her. Not one doubt.
Thursday, May 18
So give it all, it's these reasons that belong to me
Dear friends,
For one i know that it's going to take ages until someone actually bothers to read this entry, coz maybe we consider that this blog is kinda derelict as we are ALL too busy with our own lives. I guess there isnt really much of a need to express or tell anyone about ourselves until we can manage our relationship pretty well.
Our relationship is like any other relationship, and it too has its ups and downs. I shall not bore you about my theories on love or relationships rite now coz, i duno, sometimes i feel like i myself don't know that much about it coz my relationships do screw up sometimes. In love, there are always so many things that pushes and pulls people from each other and even we are hit by them sometimes.
Well what I'm here to write about today is just about me and some other issues, and if you'd bother to read on, maybe you'll actually find out a thing or two about me nowadays. Sometimes i just feel disconnected from EVERYONE, maybe i sorta missed the times everyone hangs out, and actually even bother reading blog entries, aye?
I've got a question to ask all of you, and if yall find that this entry is useless or irrelevant, then at least read this section. Read carefully alrite.
When you look inside yourselves for an answer, one that really speaks to you regardless of values of society, religion and life, how do you really draw the line between what you think and what you feel? How do you know if its logic or impulse?
Before you get any ideas, Yes, i do know that i love michyfun. Damn sure. That's not the question i asked myself.
Sure, nobody cares about reading this shit, well i hope they did. So that i knew. So tell all your friends! Pfft.
ME LOVES YOU MICHYFUN!
For one i know that it's going to take ages until someone actually bothers to read this entry, coz maybe we consider that this blog is kinda derelict as we are ALL too busy with our own lives. I guess there isnt really much of a need to express or tell anyone about ourselves until we can manage our relationship pretty well.
Our relationship is like any other relationship, and it too has its ups and downs. I shall not bore you about my theories on love or relationships rite now coz, i duno, sometimes i feel like i myself don't know that much about it coz my relationships do screw up sometimes. In love, there are always so many things that pushes and pulls people from each other and even we are hit by them sometimes.
Well what I'm here to write about today is just about me and some other issues, and if you'd bother to read on, maybe you'll actually find out a thing or two about me nowadays. Sometimes i just feel disconnected from EVERYONE, maybe i sorta missed the times everyone hangs out, and actually even bother reading blog entries, aye?
I've got a question to ask all of you, and if yall find that this entry is useless or irrelevant, then at least read this section. Read carefully alrite.
When you look inside yourselves for an answer, one that really speaks to you regardless of values of society, religion and life, how do you really draw the line between what you think and what you feel? How do you know if its logic or impulse?
Before you get any ideas, Yes, i do know that i love michyfun. Damn sure. That's not the question i asked myself.
Sure, nobody cares about reading this shit, well i hope they did. So that i knew. So tell all your friends! Pfft.
ME LOVES YOU MICHYFUN!
-while stocks last-
Dear you,
I have much to say to you, that i think what i did that day, was what me and michy thought was best for you. You know, as much as i do not want to say this, i do in some way care for you. I care about your happiness. And though i feel that sometimes you deserve someone who may suit or treat you better, i have decided to take the stand that he is the best person for you.
You know, i honestly admit to you that i don't really know how to care for someone truly.
But what i do know is how to care for someone in my own way. And my way of caring is based
on what i deduce from how i see life. Its true, many people say that i have a weird/conservative/shallow/impulsive way of looking at things, and that's why i am scared of making judgements of people.
Frankly, I am scared of what i think about people, how i see them. A small example is that I
may think that some of michy's clothes may look revealing, with cleavage or too much thigh,
but she may argue that she thinks that she looks better when she shows more. I really don't know how that may be, HOWEVER, if i look at my own way of thinking, by normal laymen terms, i am conservative when it comes to women. My women.
Whatever decisions i made, i made with the collective opinions of us both. By far, many of the
minor things that anyone have done which i'd have frown at may be dismissable by her.
You may think i have been rather harsh on you for this issue, but i have closed one eye for
quite awhile. I mean, i let you have chances a few times, its understandable what. But i just
cannot seem to ignore it anymore. Not when i know that other than me AND michy, there are
other people who know of this.
I have a responsibility to make, i have made a promise. And i made that promise when i cared about you, as a friend. When i bothered about your happiness. No doubt what happened between us has caused lots of changes, and i stopped caring for you in my own useless way. I won't deny that i should have gone to you or her first to talk about this, but its sad but true that i felt that your opinion may have changed the way i feel about this. I would have dropped this whole issue, and i would have failed my promise to him. Believe me, in all ways he deserves to know about this. I know it would be hard for you to understand, but i know what it must be like, to trust and not know what would happen behind your back.
Maybe all the things i have seen in life have affected me somehow. I just undertake a very serious issue on cheating. Maybe i have a phobia of seeing people cheat on each other. Cases of people cheating are just too many in my life, that i shall not even go there. Even the ones dear to me.
I'm ashamed to say this, BUT I DO CARE FOR YOU. Even if i find that people around you don't, or think that you're not a good person, it doesn't matter to me. Your relationship with him is important to me, as long as i'm under the impression that you would want to keep it. If one day you tell me that, no, i don't want to be with him, believe me I'd stop. I won't give a damn if you start sleeping around and shit, but till then i do. A promise is a promise. I guess I'm like a mercenary of some sort, maybe i only really care about you coz of this promise. That i myself will never know.
Though there may be things about you that i don't like or don't approve, those are things that don't affect me rite now. As long as we play minor roles in each other's lives. Other than that, you're just the same as all my friends. Stay sharp. And i'll be watching you from here. I don't mind if you wanna continue whatever this thing you're doing to me or michy, but to me, you're still you. Nothing more, nothing less. Just you. My friend.
I'm sorry ayang, i do care for her in some way. Though i don't treat her anything like any of my friends. Well.
Lotsa love, takecare bebeh.
I have much to say to you, that i think what i did that day, was what me and michy thought was best for you. You know, as much as i do not want to say this, i do in some way care for you. I care about your happiness. And though i feel that sometimes you deserve someone who may suit or treat you better, i have decided to take the stand that he is the best person for you.
You know, i honestly admit to you that i don't really know how to care for someone truly.
But what i do know is how to care for someone in my own way. And my way of caring is based
on what i deduce from how i see life. Its true, many people say that i have a weird/conservative/shallow/impulsive way of looking at things, and that's why i am scared of making judgements of people.
Frankly, I am scared of what i think about people, how i see them. A small example is that I
may think that some of michy's clothes may look revealing, with cleavage or too much thigh,
but she may argue that she thinks that she looks better when she shows more. I really don't know how that may be, HOWEVER, if i look at my own way of thinking, by normal laymen terms, i am conservative when it comes to women. My women.
Whatever decisions i made, i made with the collective opinions of us both. By far, many of the
minor things that anyone have done which i'd have frown at may be dismissable by her.
You may think i have been rather harsh on you for this issue, but i have closed one eye for
quite awhile. I mean, i let you have chances a few times, its understandable what. But i just
cannot seem to ignore it anymore. Not when i know that other than me AND michy, there are
other people who know of this.
I have a responsibility to make, i have made a promise. And i made that promise when i cared about you, as a friend. When i bothered about your happiness. No doubt what happened between us has caused lots of changes, and i stopped caring for you in my own useless way. I won't deny that i should have gone to you or her first to talk about this, but its sad but true that i felt that your opinion may have changed the way i feel about this. I would have dropped this whole issue, and i would have failed my promise to him. Believe me, in all ways he deserves to know about this. I know it would be hard for you to understand, but i know what it must be like, to trust and not know what would happen behind your back.
Maybe all the things i have seen in life have affected me somehow. I just undertake a very serious issue on cheating. Maybe i have a phobia of seeing people cheat on each other. Cases of people cheating are just too many in my life, that i shall not even go there. Even the ones dear to me.
I'm ashamed to say this, BUT I DO CARE FOR YOU. Even if i find that people around you don't, or think that you're not a good person, it doesn't matter to me. Your relationship with him is important to me, as long as i'm under the impression that you would want to keep it. If one day you tell me that, no, i don't want to be with him, believe me I'd stop. I won't give a damn if you start sleeping around and shit, but till then i do. A promise is a promise. I guess I'm like a mercenary of some sort, maybe i only really care about you coz of this promise. That i myself will never know.
Though there may be things about you that i don't like or don't approve, those are things that don't affect me rite now. As long as we play minor roles in each other's lives. Other than that, you're just the same as all my friends. Stay sharp. And i'll be watching you from here. I don't mind if you wanna continue whatever this thing you're doing to me or michy, but to me, you're still you. Nothing more, nothing less. Just you. My friend.
I'm sorry ayang, i do care for her in some way. Though i don't treat her anything like any of my friends. Well.
Lotsa love, takecare bebeh.
Sunday, May 7
Friday, April 21
Everyone will be washed away, drowning in the hell that we made.
ALL YOU OTHER SLIM SHADIES ARE JUST IMITATING, SO WONT THE REAL SLIM SHADY PLEASE STAND UP?
No. Well maybe because I am different now, with a less lame nickname. "Junkie" is really growing on me. Like Lihin said, lets not have anymore tension in third year. Then again everyone has limits.
Working life is tough, but everyone has to grow up someday. And i wanna be the best i can be. Michy has made life great for me, and i truly love her so. Gifts are nothing, i'd give her the world if i can work and pay for it. But the smiles she puts on my face and the warmness she instills in my heart, is just priceless. Michelle Fun is the best woman in the world, the most beautiful minah-wannabe in the universe. And GUA LOVE MINAHS BEBEH!
No. Well maybe because I am different now, with a less lame nickname. "Junkie" is really growing on me. Like Lihin said, lets not have anymore tension in third year. Then again everyone has limits.
Working life is tough, but everyone has to grow up someday. And i wanna be the best i can be. Michy has made life great for me, and i truly love her so. Gifts are nothing, i'd give her the world if i can work and pay for it. But the smiles she puts on my face and the warmness she instills in my heart, is just priceless. Michelle Fun is the best woman in the world, the most beautiful minah-wannabe in the universe. And GUA LOVE MINAHS BEBEH!
Friday, April 7
yaye!
i saw, i liked, i took. it didnt matter whose it was. i got it, i liked it. i didnt care how he got it. maybe he begged, maybe he ordered it overseas, maybe he got it as a gift- correction, i DON'T care. i have it, and i like it. anything that can be carried and is not under supervision, rest assured, if i like it, i'll take it. dont worry, it'll be in good hands. i take good care of valuable things, i treat them like my own and, well i only take valuable things. nobody told me it's wrong, thus i dont know its wrong. lost anything? ask me, i'll show you my collection. havent lost anything? well thats probably cuz you dont have anything valuable for me to take.
Monday, February 6
months, years and going
yes, michelle know michelle hasnt been writing... michelle's been reely trying to find the words to say these days... but michelle wants to tell andi...
happy 17th month anniversary baby. we're 1 year, 5 months, and going. to all who have been so concerned about us and our well-being... thank you so, so much. it is your support that encourages us, its you looking out for us that strengthens us... and most importantly, thank you baby, for being there... every day(though sometimes you reely get on my nerves) and in every way. happy anniversary february 6th 2006.
Thursday, January 19
"These Words Are All I Have So I'll Write Them"
We all know moms what moms love to do. They are always there, and when it seems that its free, or you're free, then they drop by and give you hints of opinions based on what they have lived their lives by. well guess what, mommy hasnt had much of a life. because mommy hangs around in other people's misery. oh, and moms gossips and bitches too!
And we all know dads love to stand back and watch. they'll just see you from afar, coz who needs dad when he's ALWAYS away rite? he does have LOTS of work to do, and he is a very responsible man i'm sure. oh but then daddy comes by and surprises you with a teeny bit of care based on his wisdom. and we'll second guess that, oh daddy does care! whoa.
you guys know NOTHING. NOTHING. i am wrong, yes. i admit im not the best person to be with my baby. Yes, she does deserve someone better. every single day of my life, i am amazed by this wonderful woman. amazed. even though its been so long, she just never fails to make me smile every single day. and there's no doubt that there's no one i'd rather be with anymore than her. god knows what i would be without her.
as for mummy and daddy, maybe we'll take you in as our parents when our real parents have all died and we decide to elect friends as parents.KEPOs. absolutely unhealthy friends. im not warning again.
And we all know dads love to stand back and watch. they'll just see you from afar, coz who needs dad when he's ALWAYS away rite? he does have LOTS of work to do, and he is a very responsible man i'm sure. oh but then daddy comes by and surprises you with a teeny bit of care based on his wisdom. and we'll second guess that, oh daddy does care! whoa.
you guys know NOTHING. NOTHING. i am wrong, yes. i admit im not the best person to be with my baby. Yes, she does deserve someone better. every single day of my life, i am amazed by this wonderful woman. amazed. even though its been so long, she just never fails to make me smile every single day. and there's no doubt that there's no one i'd rather be with anymore than her. god knows what i would be without her.
as for mummy and daddy, maybe we'll take you in as our parents when our real parents have all died and we decide to elect friends as parents.KEPOs. absolutely unhealthy friends. im not warning again.
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