Lend me your courage to stand up and fight.

Fight for honor, fight for your life.
Pray to god that our side is right.
You know we won but still we lose, until i make it home to you.
I see your mother still in tears we grew up so fast where did those years go.
Memories wont let you cry unless i don't return tonight.

Just thought that this is a beautiful, beautiful, beauyouteefool song. For those of you who don't know its M.I.A. by AvengedSevenfold and its about war. The lyrics are damn powerful i tell you. Makes me imagine what it must be like if we actually mobilize our NS for war. Its then when pain isn't love.

"Fight for honor, fight for your life.
Pray to god that our side is right."

Oh well, i wanted to say that everywhere in the world, people have different mindsets. Different people like different things, like music, behaviours, attitudes, and even religion. Of course its true that everyone in a religion would think its true. But do you even know if yours is?

Don't get me wrong, i'm still deeply rooted in mine, even though i may not be acting that way most of the time, i'm still comfy in the steps that i take. And if i do go astray, i know i'll find my way back. Or burn in hell trying.

"You know we won but still we lose, until i make it home to you."

Arguements are still arguments at the end of the day. Its never possible to not quarrel at all, especially in love. Winning/losing doesn't mean much to someone who's not participating in the argument. For the sharpest of screams can never pierce into deaf ears. I think that everyone has something to learn from each other and maybe i do have alot to learn about responsibility, but no matter if things are good or bad, its always comforting when we have each other.

"I see your mother still in tears we grew up so fast where did those years go.
Memories wont let you cry unless i don't return tonight"

The only thing i can explain from this is that I love you. People can say what they like, but i want to believe that i do love you, more than your mom. I love you. And i'll never leave you. The rest is our little story. I love you michyfun!

bad week.

if i were to go to hell my punishment would be to live this week over and over. i want to go to heaven.

I've Waited As My Time's Elapsed.

come clean.

one major problem solved is one big weight off our chests. No longer am I "THE A".
trust me, its a major step which i've never been through, with anyone. coz jenny, alfred, shah and sarinah just gave skeptics a major kick in the nuts. parents are just amazing.

coz no matter what we say, somehow, somewhere, we love our parents. and we want them to accept our love for each other. and they have.

in the distance, bells are waiting to be rung. but let us be stronger, as the path is harder now. let's go through this together. be strong, and i'll always be by your side. share your pain with me...coz we're both in this. let's douse this flame, of individuality. for in my hands, i have snubbed a sweet reminder.

Because life, isn't that miserable when you're around.

01 had a wonderful time today. i found out that marketing isn't for me, and jun impressed me a whole lot. this memory, is forever "frozen" in time as the day michy's drink worked a business like magic.

the one best thing i got lately was a ticket. not to idn, or some design conference or a movie, but the tickets, to book the life with this woman Michelle Fun Lai Ling or self-declared "Misha Bte Alfian". she's mine okay! i book liao!

now, shut up with the comments already.

this might get a little heavy.

i probably have no right to say this, but well.

-.bitch.backstab.sulk.hate.pessimistic.happy.sour.nullify.correct.-

one thing hasnt changed, no names mentioned.

though you're samesame now, you're different. we both know it.

so close.

firstly, happy deepavali and selamat hari raya to all! wow i'm rich this week! well kinda, thanks to all the lovely aunties and uncles at ian's house yesterday! surprisingly it was only a quarter of his entire family tree, but that was more than enough to get me reeeeely nervous. not alot of things get me so scared. well they made me feel right at home... they were reely nice! ian said his relatives were congratulating his dad. goodness i just turned 19. its so embarrassing. ian said his family has given me their blessings, and i thought: blessings? for what? hmmm well maybe i shouldnt ask. that dont mean i dont love him. i love him!

hari raya this year was fun. yaye next time we can celebrate hari raya AND chinese new year! and at christmas we'll drive down orchard road and admire the lights. or we could put up a little christmas tree at home!

well, my parents know and they dont stop me. can i consider it blessing? we'll take pics when we go visiting with the rest... then y'all can see my very own kebaya! haha selamat hari raya peeps!