Keep It On Wax

I'm so glad to still be here to see your transformation. I never thought that i would...maybe i've turned masochistic or something you know? If not how can i withstand all this hurt that I feel all the time just by staying as your friend, right?

And in the end, it seems you're still the one i always wanted. Fat or thin, jet black or red, bespectacled or lenses, black or retro, havoc or tame, contented or depressed, you're still Michelle.
The one I love.

Oh and about you, I don't deny that I am Malay, and if that auto-makes me a mat, I'm happy i don't have to go around masking my real name with something that i am probably worth as much as. Who's the false one now? Go ahead, mask your whole life in your vulgarities, it would probably hide people from seeing the deprivation of your lost youth days that you are probably living in right now.

Oblivion

Find in us the faith.
The faith to bring you home.

Nice song.

Ni Shi Wo De Nü Ren (Liu De Hua)

Yi ge nü ren jiu jing wei le she me
Hui zuo zhe yang xi sheng
Yi ge nan ren jiu jing fan le she me
Hui rang ni ru ci xin teng

Wo zai ren qun zhong si chu bu ting kuang ben
Zhi wei le zhao hui na yi fen zhen
Yi fen bu ke neng de zhen He yi ci bu ke neng de wen
He yi ge bu ke neng de ren

Liu zhu ni yi wen yi chun
Zai wo xin zhong ni shi wo de nü ren
Liu zhu ni shen qing yan shen
Wo qing yuan huan ge fang shi qing ni zuo wo de nü ren

Ji ran bu neng hao hao gen wo yi sheng
Bu yao gu fu qing chun OH BABY
Wo zhi qiu ni ji zhu yi ci yong heng
Na yi shun hui mou shi fen

Xiang ni zhe yi ge zhi de ai de nü ren
Jiao wo zen bu neng wei ni xin teng
You yua wei he bu you fen You meng ye wei he bu cheng zhen
Liang ke xin peng a zhuang a yi sheng

Mei you ren yuan ba xin ai de ren
Rang ling yi fu chun shen shen yu ta re wen
Nan ren bu dong de qu fen Shei shi yi sheng de ban lü
Cai wu xing yi hai nü ren OH

Liu zhu ni yi wen yi chun
Zai wo xin zhong ni shi wo de nü ren
Liu zhu ni shen qing yan shen
Wo qing yuan huan ge fang shi ai wo de nü ren WO

Cuo le guo le shi yuan fen Ni liu de shen de shi shang hen
Zu gou wo hui wei yi sheng
Ai ni xiang ni dao yong heng Wo pan a wang a ni de chun
He shi neng yu ni zai shen shen de yi ge wen

You Are My Woman (Andy Lau)

What on earth would a woman
Sacrifice so much for?
What crime could a man commit
That would let you feel such anguish?

In this crowd of people, I run in all directions
Looking only to get that piece of true love back
An impossible love, and one more impossible kiss
And an impossible person

I'll keep your kiss, your lips
In my heart, you are my woman
I'll keep your affectionate eye-expression
I'm willing to change my ways if you'll be my woman

Now that it's impossible to be with you for life
Don't disappoint youth, oh baby
I just want you to remember this one eternity
The moment when we turned our heads away

A woman deserving of love, like you
How could I not feel anguish for you?
How can we have fate, but not destiny? Why won't these dreams come true?
Our two hearts are colliding for life

No one would be willing to to let someone they loved
Be caught in a passionate kiss from other lips
Men just don't know how to realize who is their lifelong partner
So they hurt women without leaving a trace, oh

I'll keep your kiss, your lips
In my heart, you are my woman
I'll keep your affectionate eye-expression
I'm willing to change my ways to love my woman, oh

Affinity passed us by, and you're left with scars
It's enough for me to ponder over my life
Loving you, thinking of you for eternity, I yearn for your lips
When will I be able to kiss you deeply once more?

two years and eleven months

hey guys! this blog is officially closed. it's been a long run, and we've moved on. i'm onto university and andi's gonna be a 'jing cha'! so long, it's been a rough ride but i think we came out just fine.

goodbye andi. i wish you well, i wish you love.

You shouldn't have to fight alone.

You shouldn't have to fight alone.

It's nobody's battle but your own.

Tml is our anniversary.

......

But something has happened. Update again soon.

What are we all waiting for?

Our dreams.

Happy Anniversary.

happy anniversary to the most loving couple in the world.
and a happy i-love-you to my best friend in the whole wide world, my loving partner.

its time to ask yourselves,

how do they do it...make it this far?

sometimes i wanna know too. its a bittersweet and one amazing accomplishment that would be hard to beat, that's all i can tell you.

WHERE'S MY SERGEANT COURSE! YOU PROMISED ME THIS MONTH.

you think if i called them again, would they say,

"dui bu qi, wo shi jing cha".

haha.

i'll just kill myself if i go in after junxian. seriously.

I'll stay in time and watch you pass by.

hey! yesterday was our 2 year 9mth anniversary!

so sorry, no baby yet. haha! i'm blogging here since i have no excuse not to other than the occasional playing maplestory... aniwae...yesterday was really great...we just thought we wanted to share it with everyone that there is now officially a seafood platter that can rival fish&co's. yes you're right...we think that it's BETTER.

Check out this branch of Jack's Place that's turned halal a.k.a EATZI, which is found at the shopping centre beside SIMEI MRT, whatsma'callit? The restaurant is called SEAFOOD HARVEST, and for like 30 bucks, you get more than that platter u see in fish and co, with oysters and spiced clam and like some buttercheese fish and chips, prawn salad, mussels and all that stuff lah. ITS rEALLY VERY WORTH IT. PLS DO TRY IT.

ok now that the free advertising is done, my ns shit is still postponed...why?

"hi good morning, andi rite? hmm i was wondering if you were coming for the bond-signing session now?"

"what? i didnt even recieve the letter!"

"oh did u change ur address recently?"

"no i didnt, and i have recieved all my letters here, from first interview to panel interview to medical all here."

"oh okay i'll check it for u."

-later-

"ok andi, i'm sorry but the system here only writes your old address and the new photostat-ed ic that you gave us is not in the file."

"oh, so im waiting another month rite. -_-"

"err...there's an intake every month...."

i swear this must be the millionth time i've been delayed. I'M DYING OF BOREDOM AT HOME.

AND due to that, i'm lacking content to blog. i hope forever could be this good to me.

"I'll stay in time and watch you pass by
I'll draw this line and hope you'll take my side "

hola! here are our beautiful pictures from dinner and dance, like i promised! just click on them to get the source. i dont have lots of shots cuz my phone isnt as wonderful as junxian's one but hey! there are so many pictures with me in it! *grins*

the place was super ultra beautiful! thank you opening night crew!

i wanted to take more shots of the lovely scenery but kelvin was blocking it.
(and he really thought i was taking him leh!)

so i decided to take people. they were more than happy to pose for me!

suzhen: "andi look like justin timberlake!"
andi: "iz look like hotel manager!"
eugene: "lihin look like creative director!"

i dunno why i look like mother here. so ugly can.

kelvin camwhores so much because he usually does look like that.

heh. shimin and i. hot right.

and the twin shoes that broke our toe bones at the dancefloor.

credit goes to the hotel manager. so much it cut my face in half.

shimin, guorong and i! you should see him in action on the dancefloor!

shimin, fis and i! fis so quiet yet so hot on prom night :)

lookie! we've got a new blogskin! i figured the scrollbars look great when they're not making my text oh so small. also, we've got separate accounts for blogging! yaye yaye! no more guessing who wrote which now, if you ever did guess! i'm working on the links and tagboard. till then, i'm michelle fun, and i love andi sufian :)

Come Clean With Me.

Hey there all my wonderful sweet sunshine bebehs!

I have been waiting to address this for very long, and it is long due for people who know about me and care about me, to know something more about me that i always try to hide. Some of you might already know, but i have concluded that for dunno what-the-fucking-reason-is i somehow decided to share this with everyone. This is gonna be a drag for those who hate long posts, but i hope everyone takes time to read about what's important to me, if you regard me as your friend.

My topic: I have heart disease.

Yes that's right. It may not sound serious to you, but it is serious to me. I have this heart condition called arrhythmia, or more specifically ventricular bigeminy entropy. What this is, is that a normal person's heart beats twice, with a (dud,dud) rite? Mine's a (dud-dud, dud). DUDE! hahah no seriously. only when i exercise does it stabilize into a normal heartbeat.

Why izit bad? Well, for one, ALL heart diseases are fatal, and unpredictable. And because of this, for the past few months, i have been deterred from my dream career in the Singapore Police Force for forever, waiting for them to evaluate my damn PES status from a D. Ignore the next paragraph, if you're clueless about this.

The doctor told me that i can make a PES B(normal people), but if somehow the MOs at CMPB give me a PES C(abit sick/injured ppl), im ineligible for SPF, and they'll have to drop me. The shit part is, i already cleared the intense rounds of assessments, and just awaiting CMPB for my pes status for the GO AHEAD to report to Tracom(training command) in April. So im praying hard.

OK back to the storyline. Well part of why i'm writing this is just so my friends, all of you would appreciate your life more. What if you're like me, and you find out that you might just die tmr, and there's nothing you can do about it? What about the people you're gonna leave behind? The things that you've said/have not said to them?

Another reason is this, SMOKING. I did extensive research on this, as any dying man would, and let me begin on this long entry.

How extrasystole came about in layman terms:
Okay I read, that how it happens in a person who is not born with heart disease, but instead developed it(in my case) is that there has to be a point in time where the person has really died. That means his/her heart has stopped beating completely, and blood has stopped circulating in the body. A few moments later, the brain realizes this, and starts up the heart again, but due to the lack of blood circulation, makes up for it with a third heartbeat. The brain then remembers this passively and causes it to repeat over and over again. (this is my own deduction from what i read)

Thinking of that i can vaguely remember many moments in life where I know my heart has stopped, feeling a massive amount of pain in my chest. But they are always accompanied by many things, like maybe a heartbreak, or after a beating, or intense smoking, or when i used to have asthma. So its kinda hard to say really when i got this, as they are always masked by all these events.

Causes of extrasystole in layman terms:

Extreme trauma (extreme sadness, anger. i'm a rather "feelings" person i think.)

Asthma medicine side effects (i had childhood asthma, and i took medicine. who would have known it'd give me heart problems. be careful when u puff that ventolin. luckily im cured of it)

Smoking (oh yes. i'm talking to all you smokers who i can't be bothered to advice anymore.)

Conclusion:
I hope that anyone who bothers to scroll down to read this just remember me and think "yeah i know a friend who has heart disease." Remember that smoking is wrong, look what it got me and my father. Remember to do things that you'll never regret.

Get off your butts and tell the people you love that you do love them.
Love and cherish your partner(if you have one) till the very last moments that you're together.
And don't ever be afraid to let go and say goodbye.

I love you, Michelle Fun.

Saint Valentine is Christian.

Happy Valentine's Day to all....


Before i start anything, let me say STUPID DIP SHOW MEETING! WHAT A DAY TO HAVE ONE...ON V'DAE SUMMORE! i think its damn inconsiderate of them...i mean people have stuff to do on v'dae u know.

But come to think of it, its quite true what michy said, there actually isn't much special about valentine's day. I mean, we hardly know him, we don't acknowledge him coz he's not from our religions, and quite frankly, the only SPECIAL thing about valentine's day is the SPECIAL MARKED UP prices that shops have to take advantage of men and their wallets.

But well...i'm sure michy's gonna look pretty in her own custom-made blouse. Coz she's so beautiful aniwae.

Hey andi! Eh, where are u going?

I'm going nowhere.

Huh? You mean you don't know where you're going?

Yeah, sometimes.

Enlistment.

I'm still waiting for that letter.









For it is the sound of our death.