Today michyfun and me were trapped in a road accident near cineleisure orchard.
I swear it was as close to death as i got. Fear gripped my heart as i saw the car speeding towards me from the front, and michy's lying there on the road motionless.
"Get up! Get up ayang!"
But there was no doubt that i would give my life for her. Not one doubt.
Tuesday, May 23
Thursday, May 18
So give it all, it's these reasons that belong to me
Dear friends,
For one i know that it's going to take ages until someone actually bothers to read this entry, coz maybe we consider that this blog is kinda derelict as we are ALL too busy with our own lives. I guess there isnt really much of a need to express or tell anyone about ourselves until we can manage our relationship pretty well.
Our relationship is like any other relationship, and it too has its ups and downs. I shall not bore you about my theories on love or relationships rite now coz, i duno, sometimes i feel like i myself don't know that much about it coz my relationships do screw up sometimes. In love, there are always so many things that pushes and pulls people from each other and even we are hit by them sometimes.
Well what I'm here to write about today is just about me and some other issues, and if you'd bother to read on, maybe you'll actually find out a thing or two about me nowadays. Sometimes i just feel disconnected from EVERYONE, maybe i sorta missed the times everyone hangs out, and actually even bother reading blog entries, aye?
I've got a question to ask all of you, and if yall find that this entry is useless or irrelevant, then at least read this section. Read carefully alrite.
When you look inside yourselves for an answer, one that really speaks to you regardless of values of society, religion and life, how do you really draw the line between what you think and what you feel? How do you know if its logic or impulse?
Before you get any ideas, Yes, i do know that i love michyfun. Damn sure. That's not the question i asked myself.
Sure, nobody cares about reading this shit, well i hope they did. So that i knew. So tell all your friends! Pfft.
ME LOVES YOU MICHYFUN!
For one i know that it's going to take ages until someone actually bothers to read this entry, coz maybe we consider that this blog is kinda derelict as we are ALL too busy with our own lives. I guess there isnt really much of a need to express or tell anyone about ourselves until we can manage our relationship pretty well.
Our relationship is like any other relationship, and it too has its ups and downs. I shall not bore you about my theories on love or relationships rite now coz, i duno, sometimes i feel like i myself don't know that much about it coz my relationships do screw up sometimes. In love, there are always so many things that pushes and pulls people from each other and even we are hit by them sometimes.
Well what I'm here to write about today is just about me and some other issues, and if you'd bother to read on, maybe you'll actually find out a thing or two about me nowadays. Sometimes i just feel disconnected from EVERYONE, maybe i sorta missed the times everyone hangs out, and actually even bother reading blog entries, aye?
I've got a question to ask all of you, and if yall find that this entry is useless or irrelevant, then at least read this section. Read carefully alrite.
When you look inside yourselves for an answer, one that really speaks to you regardless of values of society, religion and life, how do you really draw the line between what you think and what you feel? How do you know if its logic or impulse?
Before you get any ideas, Yes, i do know that i love michyfun. Damn sure. That's not the question i asked myself.
Sure, nobody cares about reading this shit, well i hope they did. So that i knew. So tell all your friends! Pfft.
ME LOVES YOU MICHYFUN!
-while stocks last-
Dear you,
I have much to say to you, that i think what i did that day, was what me and michy thought was best for you. You know, as much as i do not want to say this, i do in some way care for you. I care about your happiness. And though i feel that sometimes you deserve someone who may suit or treat you better, i have decided to take the stand that he is the best person for you.
You know, i honestly admit to you that i don't really know how to care for someone truly.
But what i do know is how to care for someone in my own way. And my way of caring is based
on what i deduce from how i see life. Its true, many people say that i have a weird/conservative/shallow/impulsive way of looking at things, and that's why i am scared of making judgements of people.
Frankly, I am scared of what i think about people, how i see them. A small example is that I
may think that some of michy's clothes may look revealing, with cleavage or too much thigh,
but she may argue that she thinks that she looks better when she shows more. I really don't know how that may be, HOWEVER, if i look at my own way of thinking, by normal laymen terms, i am conservative when it comes to women. My women.
Whatever decisions i made, i made with the collective opinions of us both. By far, many of the
minor things that anyone have done which i'd have frown at may be dismissable by her.
You may think i have been rather harsh on you for this issue, but i have closed one eye for
quite awhile. I mean, i let you have chances a few times, its understandable what. But i just
cannot seem to ignore it anymore. Not when i know that other than me AND michy, there are
other people who know of this.
I have a responsibility to make, i have made a promise. And i made that promise when i cared about you, as a friend. When i bothered about your happiness. No doubt what happened between us has caused lots of changes, and i stopped caring for you in my own useless way. I won't deny that i should have gone to you or her first to talk about this, but its sad but true that i felt that your opinion may have changed the way i feel about this. I would have dropped this whole issue, and i would have failed my promise to him. Believe me, in all ways he deserves to know about this. I know it would be hard for you to understand, but i know what it must be like, to trust and not know what would happen behind your back.
Maybe all the things i have seen in life have affected me somehow. I just undertake a very serious issue on cheating. Maybe i have a phobia of seeing people cheat on each other. Cases of people cheating are just too many in my life, that i shall not even go there. Even the ones dear to me.
I'm ashamed to say this, BUT I DO CARE FOR YOU. Even if i find that people around you don't, or think that you're not a good person, it doesn't matter to me. Your relationship with him is important to me, as long as i'm under the impression that you would want to keep it. If one day you tell me that, no, i don't want to be with him, believe me I'd stop. I won't give a damn if you start sleeping around and shit, but till then i do. A promise is a promise. I guess I'm like a mercenary of some sort, maybe i only really care about you coz of this promise. That i myself will never know.
Though there may be things about you that i don't like or don't approve, those are things that don't affect me rite now. As long as we play minor roles in each other's lives. Other than that, you're just the same as all my friends. Stay sharp. And i'll be watching you from here. I don't mind if you wanna continue whatever this thing you're doing to me or michy, but to me, you're still you. Nothing more, nothing less. Just you. My friend.
I'm sorry ayang, i do care for her in some way. Though i don't treat her anything like any of my friends. Well.
Lotsa love, takecare bebeh.
I have much to say to you, that i think what i did that day, was what me and michy thought was best for you. You know, as much as i do not want to say this, i do in some way care for you. I care about your happiness. And though i feel that sometimes you deserve someone who may suit or treat you better, i have decided to take the stand that he is the best person for you.
You know, i honestly admit to you that i don't really know how to care for someone truly.
But what i do know is how to care for someone in my own way. And my way of caring is based
on what i deduce from how i see life. Its true, many people say that i have a weird/conservative/shallow/impulsive way of looking at things, and that's why i am scared of making judgements of people.
Frankly, I am scared of what i think about people, how i see them. A small example is that I
may think that some of michy's clothes may look revealing, with cleavage or too much thigh,
but she may argue that she thinks that she looks better when she shows more. I really don't know how that may be, HOWEVER, if i look at my own way of thinking, by normal laymen terms, i am conservative when it comes to women. My women.
Whatever decisions i made, i made with the collective opinions of us both. By far, many of the
minor things that anyone have done which i'd have frown at may be dismissable by her.
You may think i have been rather harsh on you for this issue, but i have closed one eye for
quite awhile. I mean, i let you have chances a few times, its understandable what. But i just
cannot seem to ignore it anymore. Not when i know that other than me AND michy, there are
other people who know of this.
I have a responsibility to make, i have made a promise. And i made that promise when i cared about you, as a friend. When i bothered about your happiness. No doubt what happened between us has caused lots of changes, and i stopped caring for you in my own useless way. I won't deny that i should have gone to you or her first to talk about this, but its sad but true that i felt that your opinion may have changed the way i feel about this. I would have dropped this whole issue, and i would have failed my promise to him. Believe me, in all ways he deserves to know about this. I know it would be hard for you to understand, but i know what it must be like, to trust and not know what would happen behind your back.
Maybe all the things i have seen in life have affected me somehow. I just undertake a very serious issue on cheating. Maybe i have a phobia of seeing people cheat on each other. Cases of people cheating are just too many in my life, that i shall not even go there. Even the ones dear to me.
I'm ashamed to say this, BUT I DO CARE FOR YOU. Even if i find that people around you don't, or think that you're not a good person, it doesn't matter to me. Your relationship with him is important to me, as long as i'm under the impression that you would want to keep it. If one day you tell me that, no, i don't want to be with him, believe me I'd stop. I won't give a damn if you start sleeping around and shit, but till then i do. A promise is a promise. I guess I'm like a mercenary of some sort, maybe i only really care about you coz of this promise. That i myself will never know.
Though there may be things about you that i don't like or don't approve, those are things that don't affect me rite now. As long as we play minor roles in each other's lives. Other than that, you're just the same as all my friends. Stay sharp. And i'll be watching you from here. I don't mind if you wanna continue whatever this thing you're doing to me or michy, but to me, you're still you. Nothing more, nothing less. Just you. My friend.
I'm sorry ayang, i do care for her in some way. Though i don't treat her anything like any of my friends. Well.
Lotsa love, takecare bebeh.
Sunday, May 7
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