i heart you.

lookie! we've got a new skin! thats like, SO COOL. andi's reely sick today... i hope he gets better. i really do. so here it is, the first week of school. incredible how we got by huh! we didnt. now ian's sick. get better okay? you better. by monday! i've missed you. so much. i hope you like our new skin! i've spent 2 hours customising it. surprise!

the class just seems emptier, my classmates more peculiar. i dont get hungry by eleven anymore. i look at the clock very often, hoping for time to pass more quickly. i wonder why i walk past the pond alone in the morning, i wonder why my palms arent as sweaty. i keep taking glances to the back of the class when i sit in front. in the class there is the lecturer and me. and no one to catch my jokes when i throw one. i talk in class alot, and i realise i talk to myself. yes, i talk about shopping, i talk about books, movies, people, andi, but i say these to no one. i dont expect answers anymore. time with you seems so short, time without you just goes on and on ad on.

i'll be strong. we'll get through this. no one's there to warm my fingers when the class gets icy, but i wont let it get to my heart. believe me. i know you do.






at the end of the day, you'll realise i still love you.