TL of QRT, SI Zul: Eh you like a totally different genre of music huh. Its like you listen to heavy metal and suddenly got sad jiwang malay songs. I know what that's like. So which one are you eh, "Mat Putus Cinta(Love&lost)" or "Mat Jiwa-jiwa(Emo&lovelorn)"?
Sgt Andi: I duno lah sir, i think im somewhere in the middle. :)
I've never really opened myself to much malay songs before, but you know how I always have this constant choked up feeling. I don't know sometimes I feel that I live on others, you know. I strive to make others happy, and I tend to prioritize other people's feelings rather than my own. Inside I know so many things that I just could not open my mouth to say.
In some way I guess I find relief in songs. Sometimes they speak the words that you cannot just seem to say. In that sense a song speaks to you the way you could never speak to people, to tell them what you really mean. And I wanted to apologize to random people who stumble upon this blog, I know the blog entries titles being song titles tend to mislead you into coming here, by appearing in search engines. But its just me, I guess music is in me you know.
In the meanwhile, I am continuing my struggle to be a good and useful person and continuing my motorbike pracs, and I'm targeting to pass around July or August, before Hari Raya! It hasn't been easy, mind you. I fell on the figure 8 circuit yesterday, got thrown a good few meters on the tar, skidded on my head, palm and side. Scratched my helmet bad, got bruises on my hips and tore my gloves and had a DEEP cut on my palms, which kept watering the whole day. Its the most painful shit ah, I TELL YOU. But i'm just tahaning, hoping to pass really soon for the sake of some special people in my life. :) In fact, when i fell i got up and continued till the end of the lesson, bleeding the whole time. I fell at night around 10pm, but i even went to book a prac at 830am the next morning. The instructor said i HARDCORE. YES BEBEH.
Nurse, don't scold me, ok? This strength is the light of the princess. Every knight needs his steed right? Mine's gonna be a scrambler, with a box. So don't push me off my high horse now! ONWARD!
