a sudden rush of love.

we havent been talking much on the phone. we've got our schedules, and our obligations. we've been arguing alot. we spend time together, but we feel so distanced from each other. we're either too tired, too sleepy or too busy. we speak less with each other, and we're getting accustomed to not speaking our mind. we've gotten lazy to understand and tired to explain. we try to spite each other instead, to get our point across. we're getting paranoid and losing trust in one another. so many things have happened, or not.

thank you for staying up to talk to me last night. you're gonna be so exhausted today. thank you for having to rush off to ngaji on thursdays and fridays just to spend a little time with me after school. thank you for understanding when i set aside time for family activites. thank you for sacrificing time with family, friends or PS2, for those few more hours with me. thank you for entertaining my worry and taking care yourself so you dont fall sick so easily. thank you for giving me your attention when i need it. thank you for staying back and waiting for my lessons to end every day. thank you for trying so hard to understand so that you can stand by me and support me. thank you for bothering to make me understand even when i dont want to. thank you for believing in me through times when believing got so hard. thank you for sticking up for me and protecting me when i freeze up or soften down to situations. thank you for always being there for me. thank you ian. thank you for loving me.