hey there people. its been a lil while since i wrote yeah. oh well. i just wanna wish my ayang a HAPPY 8th MONTH ANNIVERSARY!
michy said to me that day some things that really got my attention. im turnin out to be a lousy boyfriend. i refuse to allow myself to be...im sorry baby. i never ever wished to hurt you, in my mind i had no idea you were hurting. im sorry baby. i really don't know...i guess i was too caught up in my other problems in life that i treat you as my retreat. as a place i retreat to from the harshness of the outside world. it is with you that i find peace and happiness, and even though sometimes we do have our own problems, i'd rather solve ours than all the other problems i have in life. i'd rather spend time with you. the world outside is war, but the love you give to me heals my wounds and gets me ready for my upcoming battle. thank you for always being there baby. thank you.
i'm sorry that i don't know how to love you to the full extent. i just love you like how i know and im pretty sure my methods aren't enough. im sorry i failed to ask you how you wanted me to love you. i didn't know and i didn't ask. im so stupid. but now i need you to help me okay. teach me, teach me to love you properly. mould me to be the lover that you want me to be, to be the person you wanna keep with you for all your tommorrows. because i wanna be there for you. and i want to show you how much i love you...how much love i have in this heart for you. it just cant come out. help me okay.
everyone, i can safely say that michy is a very good cook. she can cook extremely well let me tell you. i have found so much love and respect in her because of this because as much as i don't like to admit it, a backdoor into my heart is thru my stomach. and michy covered them left,right and center. my wonderful wife made me MEAT cocktails, black pepper chicken chop(brocolli never became so edible), and even spaghetti. and coming from a family where mommy cooks twice a year, im wonderfully amazed by this lady. she's my darling wife. and i love her.
i don't wanna lose you baby. i don't.
problems aside; let's enjoy this day okay. 8 months and counting. till when? in the words of Raww Le Klueze; GundamSeed 1:50 "For eternity!" okay that's damn lame. haha i still love you michelle fun DAR ling.
